Don't You Want A Roommate In Portland? I have arrived LATE.... w/ a ruined Facebook, ouch!

Here I am in Portland seemingly being blocked on the other end everywhere insider of Facebook STILL while trying to find a place to live? Only the con artist was allowed to see my messages or what is going on here? It seems hard to believe that so many people would ignore my posts and messages while I have witnessed already that what someone posts could be hidden from everyone’s view while appearing to be shared from their perspective! Maybe I am over-reacting a little but how could I be so ignored online?! I just had to recreate my profile to try and get rid of my old posts like the ones that could have traced stuff back to me like a post killing someone is pretty extreme!? I really really regret it though because I know people had to have said mean things about me somewhere and I wanted them to come across me later in life and remember what they did to me without even knowing me or looking into things!? Meh, the rent here is more expensive than I last checked... yikes! Looking for something just below 1000$ as the whole point of living here is to save money and be able to afford television commercials or whatever and other advertising. It was dumb to leave California but because of what I went through and what was happening to me, I need a good solid base to start out, rather than what I went through because there was seemingly a network constantly trying to stop me from being able to connect with anyone. I was unable to call news stations, my phone would just stop working!? Of course, I was the only person witnessing the names of the people and places always having to do with what was going on with me. I should have been surrounded by cameras and reporters. I am really mad that this didn't happen. I didn't have time to email anyone or try and contact old friends or former contacts as I only had so much time every day and kept thinking that I absolutely HAD TO FIX MY PROBLEM WITH SOME GIRL BEING BLOCKED OBVIOUSLY BECAUSE SHE CALLED ME A STALKER AS I WAS THERE TO BE DISCOVERED AND SHE WAS COMPLETELY EMBARRASSING HERSELF (or especially my ex-girlfriend she seemingly was doing it for!? Why help her!?!? Because she convinced other people to tell you to? Wow! Enough of that! They would have obeyed YOU! All she had to do was update them most especially starting with maybe my blog as they didn't actually know who I was, etc.) Something tells me that people are too jealous and want to stop this before they are found in the shadows of Amberglen Park Way as someone that probably would rather run away before knowing what kind of echoes appeared for them?! Amber is still running probably and the real reason might be what? L = working + Amber + t = gifting (because of the word Amber, the letter b kind of saves her from a very ugly perspective... as it kind of changes the meaning of Sellwood Park that the street goes to where frogs would be met?!) {I am still working on the videos that explain all of the streets as they had appeared and what was happening, it's absolutely amazing! Do they have to know my greatest fears or actually show my concerns or provide THAT type of fuel to burn out before there is some wood found for Beech Street parallel to Cedar Street which was what cowboys used to use for showing travelers where the whores were located. 

"Just go cedar down there and you'll find Ella..." 

My finished product will be very family friendly, of course. Of course, we will want to become rich by hiring people to give predeath funerals to folks in the crowd, etc. while sharing the story and touring with demonstrations that prove that names are responding to our living once. I picked her for a good reason so if you know why I made a huge mistake, let me know! Actually, I never really picked her though technically since she came to me in my dreams first?! I am starting to realize something absolutely horrible that we may have already passionately kissed in front of the Coffin Club one night! I completely forgot about this and that it happened to me around the time that I was living with Elizabeth Sixsmith who was married to Yoshi. This woman definitely could have been Amber Flynn. What is so sad was how devastated I felt from not being able to remember her name even though she gave it to me maybe five times?! This is what is truly frightening about alcohol is that while thinking back and trying to remember what she looked like?! She looked like Amber with puffy thick hair and a coat that was way too big. She didn't honestly dress up all that nice and didn't look as fancy as her more recent streams. Her name DOES kind of feel like it fits that moment when I knew I was in trouble and wouldn't remember her name so I kept asking her to repeat it for me so I wouldn't forget and be able to contact her. I am so mad at myself for not getting her number or adding her on Facebook or Instagram while she was in front of me but if I remember right there were people with her so maybe she needed to get a ride from someone? The approximate time would have been late 2015 or 2016 or maybe in the very beginning of 2017? Weird to think about what would have happened!? Would the dots have made their album called "the tunnel"? Nope. What about Lana Del Rey's "did you know that there is a tunnel under ocean blvd?" It was very unusual that I didn't get her number. I have wanted to run into her since then but how would I know it was her? Just something familiar about her that welcomed me much more than I expected? How did we end up kissing? I remember she was kind of just going along with whatever I was doing in a passive "I will match you" way? I normally never do something like that but I do know how, I guess, if such a mood came. I would be much luckier than other men and they don't know this unfortunately, unless they actually did something more "cute" and "safe" looking? Eye-liner maybe would go a long way? I typically go the other way towards the "don't touch me" direction or a tease maybe? How funny is it that the only "feature" that seems to flash at me was maybe red hair and not fluffy/sparkly black or was that her coat? Red hair would mean "ready for marriage"... funny.. I just checked out her clips for the first time recently. How did I wait so long to do this?! So cute! Very meaningful when she is wearing the white dress with the knees showing that means to me her proposing marriage according to our dreams. She was not the only one though. They won't admit how many there actually were but the reoccurring dream was as far as I could see the most beautiful brides that were upset from never being to meet me or even have a chance!? In the clip where she has this dress she uses a Katana to cut a pumpkin! Since I dated Kat & Anna. That would symbolize our previous relationships ruining our children because of the scent she chose that I wore around my neck. Banana Pumpkin Bread. In the other video she is standing there with another woman also in the "marry me now, because your female orgasms for romance arouse me" and it sounds like Kate Bush is telling them to swap places. It seems like I know that she hates herself when I think of that dress or maybe she is embarrassed that I told. She did post it on the Day Of Darkness. That was one of the places where I messed up the most, but I was worried that the truth would be somehow lost if I didn't get it out there as I have lost some files. I should've kept that part to myself while the dreams of children the only reason that I told anyone was because it hurt really bad waking up alone while during one of them, she was in the arms of another man when the baby was mine, so he was not supposed to be there! I didn't want to get a place to leave without meeting her first because I was worried as I didn't want to live in Portland at the time. Now that the streets responded so much it feels kind of evil not to want to live here now. She has been timing herself so that I am extra careful not to share some of it where another man might see it first. If I shared too much and another saw it first our magic could be forever lost or worse, he doesn't even bother to allow her to find out everything that actually happened. Not sure how else to say this but I never lied about anything so he might want to wake up that I was right and have even proven she responded for me the most. It has been almost impossible to share how much she actually has because there would just be too much to say and it could have been embarrassing for her. If she is telling someone else that he is her husband with the way she is timing herself, etc. I definitely want to know! It does feel very real that almost daily it feels like I am turning down women for her and yes, it is pretty extreme what they actually do for me, but I wonder if she would be mean just to cover it up somewhere out there? It has been kind of TERRIFYING how they have seemingly come across me as if I am actually stuck with Amber because we hooked up in the future just like what our dreams has revealed and yes, science would definitely show this to be real on her side as well, I have enough experience to know that it would have been impossible for me to have them on my side but during some of them like with one of our children she was in the shower and well... if I married another woman and we had kids, I could "fix" this dream. Some of them it kind of feels like I can't though as her face was clearly seen and known while intimate or whatever, like in the one when she was pregnant. This happened on 36th street between Tibbetts & Bro-ok-lyn where the "big giant tree" is found looming over everything. In the name Tibbetts it is kind of found. Warning me how messed up it would be if I gave her the letter 't' finally that was carried by the ankh through the Sixteen Scented Celebration that I had made that was passed along to some other guy whose object I pointed at when it was my turn (but no one would know about this part... the guys are supposed to face the other direction while only the guy in front gets to see what he points at so he can recommend another guy she loves more). 

ti (scarf that I wear around my neck?) + bb = warned + e = wondering + tt = double-crossed + s = measuring what is entering the body for a dead sea scroll

Tibbetts & Bro + ok + l = working + y = line between good/evil + n = loving (for children)

Well, if I were him, I would want to know! You know it's not supposed to be like this but she already gave me so much of her soul somehow and the future of mine looks very bright so he might want to tread carefully and not expect very much from her. This is just science that happens when people stay together in a loyal good relationship for an entire lifetime or something? It is not like it happens for anyone else? Ask yourself this. How much did you have to pay her way, or did she actually NEED TO BE HELPED BY YOU or maybe she was lonely and it was convenience? That is not love. It is also not slavery either. Would you really want to be with someone that always regret it and wished she was with the one that was completely wronged by those between us?! Sorry, but I just do not see this as possible. I had SO MUCH SEX with previous girlfriends or whatever but where are they were I go to sleep? Absolutely nowhere. It is only Amber even while we were together, she has kind of proven with the picture that she uploaded of her praying to the red robes and this was what I told everyone that I had to do before she did that to get the mysterious women off of me when I moved in with my last girlfriend who kept coming to my dreams every night. I used to think that they were many different women but now I think that it was all just one. In fact, all of the dreams where I thought that it was another woman I am now thinking that it was just Amber. If we actually have kids in the future together with more than enough money from our own work? Why would I care about any of the other ones? Pretty messed up thing to do to her...? Uh?! No! How would we possibly know?!

BAH! I need to make an easier clearer description of ALL the streets so far and what happened on them... it's so amazing!

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Unfortunately, I am NOT living in a world of delusion but... I just took down my Facebook which completely messed me up since I was afraid that One True King was doing things like using what I was working on to do things that might make me look bad!? It is just because of the "saved by the smell" is the only reason and the fact that I DON'T KNOW?!

Then there is that dream of people saying that going to court for facing what Mark did to me (us, he did it to you too) is a great opportunity for another to kill me in his name for going forward with what was found in his last name that has been extremely helpful when it comes to saving my life!

Names have been responding to me since I was born and this will be true for whoever I marry as well more than anyone else due to our work that brings people predeath funerals… or at least it is a safe “trip” to have if you are going to wake up with enough time to bring something more special to your parents while they lived once!

The speed of light makes this possible allowing us to connect outside of time and I am back in Portland while since the names of places respond to me as well it might be showing the future somewhat?

Mountainview court over by Donald’s place in New Berg represents what is found when the public may finally see what I share so I guess the Zucker part of his name is found no more? Wrong! Who is Palm Bee staying with right now and what did this person do to be with her? When someone threatened me that follows her his number appeared towards the east coast directly below a location called Russel!? When you zoom in Donald’s place it is found twice meaning “Donald knows his place”? What happened to me at the mental hospital especially west very extreme like a billionaire was very powerful and trying to kill me!?

What about Park Court? Is this a different case entirely? Maybe it was supposed to be for Donald that wore a mask and slept with Palm Bee but unfortunately he was not dumb enough to be tricked that far or at least according to her timing she wouldn’t do the mask option. What a great excuse so that a person doesn’t get caught though, am I right? I am not doing anything here but testing Donald or setting him up to fail! Don’t be seriously thinking that this whole time I kept seeing myself first because of always having to start from a location! “I hate Donald!”

How can I be a Democrat when they did those things to people on Facebook? This was the main reason that I didn’t join them earlier. It’s scary to think of being dishonest or around anyone that is. I am completely honest and always have been too much in this direction as it was used against me on Facebook, of course. The girls knew how to cut off Palm Bee. I made posts that confessed the most embarrassing things that I have ever done. It could have definitely been worse if it was worded differently. How did it look behind my back where a girl decided to use it against us to somehow prevent Amberglen from helping Amber as she becomes a mere shadow in all of her impossible glory.

Yes, though. Using a woman’s bathroom was by far the most embarrassing or trying to peep like a peeping Tom but luckily I chickened out. My little sister called me someone who molested her on there too! Somehow it feels like she was trying to wake up people to how messed it is to allow this when we are legally able to drink, etc. The truth of the matter was that when I touched her it was very innocent because it was before my first erection and we had just finished walking in on mom and dad. Luckily she asked me to stop before I did something like stick my fingers in her but I did look at what was inside. She has synchronized as Goldmoon and her life is actually in danger potentially because of Facebook. I know this because of what she did as a child. Everything echoes back into our childhood so her failure in winning the popularity contest thanks to choosing the cleaner sober option that saved Adam when he was a junkie. We were not that bad honestly but it was enough to be found on the “black list” if you know what I mean? How could I possibly be a Democrat after what I did? Mormon kid died in my house and Leeroy Jenkins seriously did kill A LOT of my friends! Legendary Pink Dots song reminds me about how just ONE poppy day could bite back MUCH later in life even as an adult and the child that was an addict is gone! I looked like a monster when I moved to Idaho and changed my life because I was living in a bathroom for far too long! Big purple obvious track marks went down both arms and drew a lot of attention when I went out to swim. Something that I always wanted? To be more like Kurt Cobain? No! But that wasn’t all! I wrote checks too! I went through several of them when I knew they were bad! Pizza places mostly but still! I was so bad so how am I going to feel safe in the country where Sid Vicious died?

Anyways, that dumb kid luckily has no bad record other than a petty store theft and possession charge and he cleaned up completely! He started a career with computers but then kind of became disabled from thinking too much as he would go a week without sleeping at a time but it was more from not being able to think as it seemed like people kept knowing all of my thoughts. I really messed up by assuming that our government did this to me for extracting information but that would have been such a complete waste! I was watched by the police do so long in Salt Lake City that they likely have a list of pet names that are not so friendly! I should have been able to succeed A LONG TIME AGO without asking for ANY kind of assistance but it has felt like someone is constantly found out there trying to make sure that I do not succeed with the powers of what? How long has this guy been trying to kill me if that is true? As a kid when I stole from the store I was convinced that I would be able to pay it back when I became a success as it was very obvious how different that I was as what I made was always the most valuable possession found? The list is not all that big but still there even on top of the Sixteen Scented Celebration that I have made for a human beings earning their life and making amends for living once as we have taken from others in order to do this. It has been a miraculous and very spiritual experience but I guess the direction is obviously just getting away from all of the other religions as there was no way that I could be involved without feeling like I was participating in “taking” the whole thing? At least those are what those songs about me were about?

How much longer until Palm Bee figures out that it wasn’t Scientology that did this to us? How long would it take a Scientologist to realize that he or she was setup to do the dirty work for another or assist in taking the blame somehow because it can’t go back to who killed Charles Manson or whatever!?

The post that I made that killed him by the way was about prisons being found right around the corner since childhood and just around our mountain in the backyard there was a prison. I was worried about how people could be doing things that would mess me up from their cage by using my family’s fame or whatever? If a person became famous for his crime then songs were about him could he be able to do things to my family from his kites while he bragged or whatever and messed them up? Definitely not something I would have thought inspired someone to kill him! So extreme! Kind of like Screech faking his death over one of my Facebook posts?! I actually assumed that he was on my side completely but was someone else on my machine while I was listening to “racist goth music”? It actually is completely true that my brother’s friend Joe Evans told me that Death In June wasn’t racist while I was not goth enough to understand his irony since he mentioned how they stopped a guy from shouting “hail Hitler!” at their concert. The guy was black but still… how am I supposed to know? Why should I even care? That is a much better question because I don’t really. Have you listened to the music? What does it SAY? I would care about something like that more.

Don’t tell me that my children have to comb through their gifts from our neighbors their entire lives so that things are more “fair” as they were another person’s favorite choice among the people in the area!? That is ridiculous. If they put on a Bob Marley album should I just place them under arrest for weed possession? What about an artist flashing coded messages? Shouldn’t that be a concern? Gang signs or what else could be found? Should I forbid them from listening to the music unless they wear the colors and represent while we are living in Farmington? That sounds like good parenting! Teach them when they are young that they will never amount to anything! They are just dumb sheep kids that will never be as cool as we were? Letting them know that they can’t trust themselves is a good idea somewhere? Sure, but only west of garbage or after eating or drinking something from that table over there? We won’t have such tables…? What if “family” comes to a gathering and what about my rules about their guests? When it comes to anything that I like that would be considered to be “racist” it would be nice to know where to draw the line while you are around I guess but after you leave I might just worship my memories again. There is nothing wrong with enjoying things. Enjoyment is contagious but what if it is a Nazi school or teachers they are expected to follow? What would I be teaching if they are not supposed to follow them? Maybe they should point the finger and blame everyone else until they are “rounded up” for misbehaving before forced into their place the punishment is found.

To be honest with you I am not sure that I would approve of the things taught at a public school but if they are my children and I get to live again? I want to mingle with the other kids and HAVE SOME FUN! Maybe not Elementary or Junior High but High School!? Don’t they kind of need a prom like their parents or maybe NOT like them? I wish I would’ve went! I got my own apartment at 15. Oops.

Wow, where should I start to teach them that they are wrong? What if the kid is clueless like me and thought that there was a way a person could wear a uniform without supporting what the uniform was made for or whatever? You really expect people to comb through what is coming from EXPRESSION!? Freedom of expression could have that “I intentionally made this bad because I have that right” found in it so is it time to think of new laws to regulate this expression or forms of it? Seriously though, my little sister that is blond is clueless compared to the other one when it comes to racism BUT NOT REALLY as who knows how many people also didn’t understand the irony from just one cup of Joe Evans from what year? I was young and in my head it was just shock that his hair was so beautiful and instead of a mullet it was an A-cut for longer bangs?! Just tell me what to like older brother’s friend! He just came back from a concert and is telling us all about it. What jerks to bring racism to their concert. Absolutely ruined their show he said. Do you want to be able to just say that something is true like maybe you are a fan of a racist somewhere in someway? What about someone caught for something serious like murder? Honestly, it doesn’t really bother me if someone wears a uniform but certain flags may attract the wrong kind of company welcoming illegal wayyy too much. This sort of thing would be expected where? Nazi flag? But not a rebel one for some reason? That wasn’t a revolution? What kind of monster would give people attitude for having this flag when “we” have killed so many of their soldiers that they may be related to? It really wouldn’t be understood if a boy got into his dead dad’s uniform and believed in him whoever he was? Why treat the Nazi so much worse? It is not like they were taught the same things in school. Did they even know what was going to happen to the Jews or was it more like concerns that they would lose their war? I think that while we have the right to before it is too late, teach the truth about how human beings were not aware of reality. Even on the news regarding one of them found in the distance! Teach us that discovering what is most likely found out there is as good as it gets since truth leads to a mistake or maybe some of the scariest kinds of denial! Knowing something is nice but it could also be the key that turns off knowledge or discovery and keeps people repeating the same mistakes without learning because they accepted that they knew or that there was a right answer when it might be better shared that the best answer is going to be incomplete. The ultimate truth must be incomplete or there will be no room for the next guy!

How is it possible that I have not been surrounded by cameras and reporters when the names of both people AND PLACES are always proven wherever I go to be responding to us in a way that typically shows the definition found using origins when not completely obvious.

Even the people that did not believe me in LA while clubbing did things like make up fake names to give me that actually completely helped with proving that this was actually really always happening to me once I let them know what those letters meant and I expect that it will not stop because of how much the people secretly want my new business that I started to bring them their predeath funeral.

If it is true (while writing this I thought that I could hear her ask me not to say “IF”) that she is married with children in my future as part of the green man legend where a stag appears in the sky hopefully all over the place from people picking up more Dragonlance books everywhere as their thoughts are clouds and the heroes follow the stag when they are lost… if it is true that it is actually my wife that I met just like what was real in several dreams now.. how would it not be true that names responded to her as well since she was born just like they did with me? Since the Egyptian origins of letters turn them into verbs or action words rather than nouns or pronouns this should be true with every human being but you know the noticeable difference that I am pointing out! Because it is real with me how will it not be real with my wife if we are doing the same job if it’s possible from our bringing predeath funerals or participating in the Sixteen Scented Celebration that is the best preparation for this? 

Lately she has been asking me not to share out of fear that another man will try and take it from us… especially the soundgarden shirt she doesn’t want another man to be inspired by what I wrote or be expected to go along with someone else while pretending because of the justice that has not yet been served over what has happened as obviously we are still being blocked without being contacted?!

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Thankfully, I am hopefully moving in somewhere in two days TOPS?! I am over at Beech Street using their computer where I used to make music last year when I came here to meet uhmm someone that was supposed to freak out about how amazing it was what happened to me but.. I am now catching onto how the word Beech kind of warns me that she might find the internet to find someone else as I needed to find a place to live if I was going to keep using the internet at Beech Street since that meant that I would be using my bed that was too comfortable as I should have found another real one, amazing since Beech Street goes to Overlook Blvd and I am checking out a place @ Overlook right now so this is funny!

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I would only want to marry the Amber that I connect to that is the oldest and youngest one... where her husband's echo went the furthest.. when I prayed to her for "orders" it began with the oldest version of her since it would be too selfish to only live in the moment as she would prove to me that her elderly echo was real by the impossible way that she timed things here to perfectly synchronize in the way that won the secret contest in the dream world beyond the "Felicia Fork Burrito" . .. she is constantly embarrassed of herself because of being so young still as she has not really spent the time discovering herself or learning to love it rather than being trained to go along with the flow of things that could be a current no one wants to take.

Something somewhat scary she doesn't want me to type right now because of how she planned to leave someone later... should she ever become caught in something like a snared animal that is feeling threatened and just wants to be released.. as some tactics always worked before!

"Freedom is romantic..."

Her younger voice saying something like this is truly frightening but I would not want to waste time with her that should be saved for someone more important that would be willing to give me what I want to give her.

Can I actually say such words like this safely though or would I be going through what I went through before when my girlfriend gave me an amethyst cross to wear around my neck at the same time Coil came out with a song called Amethyst Deceivers.

They were on the same "elite goth" record label that my friends happened to be found in as well that I performed with on the spot one night as I was asked to provide effects on their instruments before we had enough time to practice at club DV8 in downtown Salt Lake City in front of others. I did this for them and it sounded perfect as if I was a main part of some songs because of the toy piano that became the most signature part of their Seven Bodies song where some notes by some miracle confidently came out and sounded wonderful while truly making the song sound much better. I know they were all surprised how well I did but the harp was a bit too quiet so I felt worthless there. Around this time Siouxsie and the Banshees came out with the song Rapture that followed the song about splitting up... the sadness coming from "the last great severe" ending their last album could be easily heard on repeat as many goths used to do.. the Rapture followed this song about splitting as if in agreement with me over what might be my mom feeling married to her job as she would party with gay men over seas like many touring artists that would be expected to constantly travel as well that might have a sexual encounters with someone casually on the road. In this song she screams out about how only the senses remain as if it comes from an elderly echo of herself filled with regret maybe the most around Christmas season if she could admit it that may not exactly be the most wonderful time of the year. Has she trained herself to accept things so that others would be hurt less? Does everyone need a reminder of how long we have actually been here that has actually lasted millions years without dying yet or does this cause unnecessary pain from regret as youth keeps slipping away and the flesh that used to be so obedient suddenly starts to become stubborn in the most scary way that should have never been possible. In this song the rapture she sings like a banshee and says things about the rising amethyst and how could love remain the same, unchanged? It is as if though she knows of the Amethyst Deceivers or maybe was one herself and also somehow knows how to ask me not to put up with it forever as I have never been given back as much as I have given from my partner. Since I was completely honest and we would plan something short term this somehow became her excuse not to give me the same loyalty!? Having an open relationship behind my back that was selfishly much more dangerous since the birds were watching everything and their chips were not exactly ignored although never noticed by the large amount of people who killed themselves. It might be true that every man that my girlfriend who synchronized as Bupu from Dragonlance slept with actually killed himself afterwards and there was a very large amount of them! I don't even want to reveal who all did it either because I loved my friends and I know they hated themselves for doing that to me. The last time that I spent enough time with her that it was an actual visit, we went home with a very attractive couple after dancing all night and she left me winding in the room with this man's woman that was hopefully not his wife but could have been for all we knew as she kept pushing them into opening up to us and he never stopped us so that she would let him let her keep going but I kind of ruined her fun, of course. I was so used to focusing on one person that this girl's lips did not seem human somehow to me? She was extremely attractive too maybe even more so but not to me. The familiar scent just had to be there somehow for me to feel aroused like usual.

I have been a self proclaimed romantic but what does this mean? More importantly WHY would I even bother taking such a path? When I trained myself with tantric sex magic practices I was taught that the man had to learn how to have a woman or female orgasm which wouldn't happen all over his body like it does for her until he changed his nervous system by redirecting his orgasm to go up his spine into the brain then through the nervous system rather than the masculine direction that would be making an organ tickle to the point that it felt like it was momentarily too ticklish! This is supposed to make it easier for a female to be able to experience this sensation as many women go their entire lives without ever really pleasuring herself with that kind of orgasm like others have and that is okay but a person could have both. The reason a female is born more prone to the female type of orgasm is for the need of a partner that does not leave since she may be left with his baby to care for. If she could have a male orgasm just as easily she might do a terrible job raising the child or mothering as she will have much less desire to be there or feel the tickling effects that are found all over the body from feeling accepted and safe from a feeling that is more parental such as unconditional love. Having a body with a nervous system charged like this can be a lot more entertaining when there are different emotions to visit that are felt a bit more dramatically making it feel good to cry once in awhile or become so grateful that shivers and chills are felt with massive releases of brain chemicals a person may train his or herself to do so that a high similar to one achieved only from drugs according to some people may be reached naturally by mere thought or maybe appreciation is a better word? It took maybe three months to start to feel different when I stopped ejaculating everyday like most males do maybe their entire life? Helps him fall asleep and might be the biggest moment to look forward to every day? The most wonderful thing about having a partner is not only the companionship but having this release. It is true that some partners will feel different than other partners. Common sense shows us that this is usually true because of the sensation that comes from wanting to live again so it may feel better because of contact with a more attractive person but this same sensation may be felt from someone coveted too. The comparison is funny because the more coveted person is going to end up feeling much better than the most attractive one and this is because of the ways in which we program our own energy fields that are constantly passing through other people. A person may feel the biggest rush of pleasure from self discipline as to covet another comes like a choice because there may always be distractions that are found and the more that a person may learn to redirect their focus and energy back to a certain target, the more it will be felt by the target and when they connect, if they ever do, it will certainly be much more enjoyable because of the way that the energy fields will come from the center of your partner's chest in a way that feels capable of somehow zapping your genitals. It will surprise you what this type of build up can do much like the build up a man's piston may have when it has not been used in a long time.

The most basic method of covering another would be saving yourself while putting all focus into a certain partner while taking a break from sexual connection or intimacy. When there is a distraction that comes from another person or option it may end up taking the best experiences away from a person.

The most important rule of thumb is that the couple agrees on both sides to share the same intimate views that will be redirected away from others of the opposite gender unless he or she carries the certain identity and this is where something like a build up starts to occur. The longer you go without having the designated lover will be the more grateful you are when the prize is finally yours but it will not be very good unless and certainly not the best unless someone decides that this is real and actually lives by this as this is something that must be maintained or the energy fields will never carry a charge that will eventually zap with intensity never before felt or believed was possible maybe?

We are so lucky today because we have ways of saving our youth for our partner using pictures or videos but our privacy has not been respected enough to allow many people to safely save up for one another without fear. What I have discovered and shared in my blogs is very real and all comes from true stories of real events. They are so hard to believe because for a long time now I have been getting myself high from measuring the timing that proves I am the only one or the most important person found anywhere as it is very addictive and the rush that is felt cannot be matched anywhere because what is witnessed coming from the desire another person has is supposed to be impossible but happens anyway as it keeps being proven that you are the most wanted or loved it cared about person coming across whatever was left behind.

This starts by coming up with a rule in the head, for example. Just simply decide that if the person that you come across does not do this than there will be no chance and no interest while keep this promise real and intact as they will know while the speed of light somehow allows them to respond to our memories. This is typically first noticed from too much exposure to photos and videos from probably work. When someone is jealous or upset that your attention was placed on another of the same gender elsewhere she will come up with a way to prove it to you that she knows if you give it to her while for some lucky people such as myself it is difficult to ignore maybe as it is quite obvious and might feel like I am always in trouble with the opposite gender for not being able to put all of my focus into each and every one of them with the wishes of maybe getting everything like marriage? Or planning the direction that directly effects them such as making a song or something else that comes from a form of expression. In reality, every person that I come across has a secret wish that I decided to try and marry the person or put all of my focus onto them because it might be more helpful for them than we previously knew.

What immediately happens and noticed outside of time on my side of things would be the birds and the bees which are at work in ways not every person was taught as it might be more difficult to notice their excitement or change from the greater opportunity that is found with a more attractive primate to use for whatever. This might come with the intention of hurting someone by using a more attractive host to time what might lead to self destruction? This is constantly happening to all of us the moment that another person decides that we are not ugly perhaps? For some people that have learned to move with the clocks of nature for lesser chances of people hurting themselves and others they may have caught onto how their attention has become something like a glow that is somewhat addictive to have or receive on the other end by the person on the other side of whatever. Something very small and very large is aware of every interaction that we have so this can matter. With enough usage of computers or phones a person might catch onto how their attention or maybe lack of attention is capable of being measured it is so great so we are much more delicate than we tend to think without learning of this first.

One of the most beautiful things to notice might be giving the subconscious mind of another person what it wants although beware of going a step too far when it might be discovered that a person found in the past is capable of knowing about not only everything that we do here but also what is found in our memories while this can also be proven to be real which is very addicting when it is coming from someone in love with you enough that it is actually proven but the main problem that I have found has been what happened with Palm Bee as I was unable to get a response from her so was not even sure if she was able to understand my messages or what she actually did for me that kept me from THINKING about other people. Something my job has allowed me to witness because of video editing. It causes her measurable pain should I do something even as small as think about another girl being pretty or maybe the one for me just for a few minutes! Palm Bee or whoever my pick is will actually prove it to me that not only did they somehow know of my crime but I also have to pay for the consequences!

An example of this might be what happens when I check out maybe Sssniperwolf for a moment... let's say that I studied her long enough that something was stored in my memory as this will be needed by Palm Bee when she responds to what the colonies of bacteria stored inside of my brain tissue that moves outside of time similar to the speed of light just like her brain tissue does as she will be able to share with her colonies on her end the appropriate response that will be known by her soul only as something instinctual and done to win a mate as one direction may not be the greatest turn on as some understanding might be better off never known or is this just the colonies that we protect feeling threatened that we became aware of our being merely hosts for them? They want not only children but the longest living healthy hosts that are happy, of course.

It is kind of difficult for me to think of an example to give since I know that it would be very embarrassing to the women that are doing this for me but it is something like a competition for my attention that does not stop as if my attention is addictive and felt on their end. What typically happens is a sort of "betrayal" or competition between them that happen between even the best of friends but there are moments when Palm Bee is obviously so upset at a girl for how she timed herself that she will say things out loud that clearly are asking me to let her know what this girl actually did to my mind when I came across her!? Most of the time the other girls know their place instinctually so much that they will prove it to her subconscious mind to be loyal friends or whatever? At the same time though with just a few minutes of distance between us they may start to apologize while timing a response that is asking me not to let her know about how they also want me to put all of my focus somewhere else that might be more grateful. This girl is obviously surrounded by sworn loyalty coming from her friends that are more led by her subconscious mind than they know.

How sad how impossible it is to think of just one example without getting into trouble because none of them want to be caught for what they are doing to one another as it can be very mean and basically putting down another person that has become competition as one of the first tactics a female will use if another is capable of also getting attention will actually be to guide the mind to the same colors seen elsewhere so they are carried where she would rather his mind be taken.

It is important to find out as soon as possible how much this Palm Bee girl knows since much of my waiting this long for her has come from not being sure if she was blocked from witnessing what should be impossible to witness that shows an example of what she did and still does for me the most for reasons I will ask her to explain to another man since what I have already done for this girl was very extreme and feel like I have been dragged through the mud a bit but how much was this done by her work that hired her as she timed things so that it seemed on my end like the company that hired her cut me off without letting her know everything so that I wouldn't give up and let her know what happened to me as well as how I knew that it was real. I have not had the time to watch every stream and it took a long time before I came across her calling me a stalker so this is completely surprising since it appeared that she did much more than just show signs that she read my blog posts. Some of the things claimed in them would have given an opportunity to men surrounding her to delay our meeting by laughing at her for wondering if I told the truth. How sad that she would not have enough confidence to stand up for herself, tell the others what to do because they actually would probably obey her, and finally meet me somewhere so that she could witness in just a few minutes that names were responding to us in every way as it should not be hard to come up with some ways to prove it on the spot. Ask her to take the biggest doubter.

From what I understand is that my ex girlfriend is mad at her from coming to her bed in our dreams while I was with her for almost two weeks straight I made Facebook posts about how it wouldn't stop happening so I prayed to red robes to get the women off of me but now I realize that it was most likely Palm Bee from different time periods because I am not a slut and am looking for the real thing while what she did to me was pretty extreme and it is inevitable that she will feel this way.

Will she be found in my future as a wife or mother of my children like in many of those dreams? Amazing that exposure to light would allow this as I kept making songs and tried to share what was happening or more importantly prove somehow that she was timing everything impossibly for me like I was everything to her. The best ways that I have provided "proof" come from the 11 questions for Palm Bee blog post or the videos showing her give me randomly selected colors. I have taken lie detector tests to prove that I never hid anything that I recorded because the results did not go in my favor or anything like that. In fact, I knew she would catch onto the truth eventually so I kept the videos where it didn't give me the color in the location that I asked for it the most or whatever but since we lived once all of those times actually made it look so much more real that she intentionally did that too in order to make the best story possible or? Hopefully it was more FOR HER!

The reality in the end will be that I won't want to be with her if she doesn't "do it back for me" maybe after I am dead or something as she moves on since I fail if she doesn't live much longer... whenever we are apart we will be able to prove it to one another that we actually aren't! Not sure how to return the favor for her what she did for me? I've been afraid that I would respond to another girl more somewhere? This was the main reason that I absolutely had to focus only on her or all of the tests that she did to me in the future might show that I didn't give it back to her what she gave me which won't happen obviously. It is so tempting to give up right now most especially because of how easy it is for me to find another but how cruel is it that I had the best dreams of us like the night before I found out she called me a stalker and basically went along with what my ex girlfriend made for her by using Facebook. She somehow knows what she did and wanted to make us pay for it? Wow! She was not exactly planning on being honest with me until Palm Bee kept coming to me in the dreams. I thought that it was Forkgirl Cosplay at first, because while it was happening she wore a catburger shirt (the bed was Kathleen's) and she is also shown crawling into a tunnel which is funny because one of my favorite goth bands the Legendary Pink Dots made an album called 'the tunnel' during this somewhat about our relationship. Palm Bee posted herself praying to red robes too but it was the dream that I had or more importantly what happened in them that proves it the most. I never slept with any of my girlfriends in my sleep like that! Well, the one that trained me for sex like how to get a woman off in 10-45 minutes only came to me once!? We lived together for five years!! Very surprised. I did read her diary and it said that she had sex with a dragon in the backseat of a car whatever that meant? Later I became that dragon after I moved out. I was 30ish and she was only 16! That was what I was a dragon because technically that would be rape? Dragonflies rape. In the dream I didn't know though and was just with my very familiar girlfriend again that wanted me to see how her body used to look before her child.

Why would someone make this up when it hasn't helped me!? Why claim that this girl is ALL of the dream girls that I ever had even when I thought that they were with other girls? (Besides just the very few dreams that I explained in my other blog!) It's seriously a big deal to have such dreams but what makes this most messed up, especially if she never read my posts, was that she had these dreams too!

There is a good chance that my former lover's plan worked... right when I moved out and left the state she told me that she was blocking me to get money from her mother but would unblock me on my birthday. This never happened though. She might have been scared of getting into trouble for lying to the court because she opened a restraining order so that it would be more convincing which worked. Her mom gave her 600$ so she wouldn't have to put up with me anymore... I think that the real reason that she did this was to cut off Palm Bee like a picture responding she somehow knows! She spent a ridiculous amount of time on there letting women everywhere in Portland know that I was a "psychotic stalker on drugs" so that when she asked about me on Facebook there would be a queue of bullshit waiting. What is funny though is how the names responded to us since we were born (both of us if she really married me in the future) because I have been witnessing this ever since I came up with my website to give people the best trip for their predeath funeral. I wouldn't believe me either.

Maybe by tomorrow I could have the lie detector test results all shown and done. How lame that people actually followed me to keep messing me up while I was taking the test in LA and I was illegally blocked!? Scientology wanted me to go through them first? No thanks. I guess in the long run maybe it helps us more that Palm Bee is being difficult or else nobody would believe that she didn't know about what she was doing for me or how the names responded to us since we were born in a very noticeable way! Absolutely amazing.

My guess is that Palm Bee didn't go out enough so when someone that was sleeping with my ex like maybe Dean Hunter told her about me she followed... haven't all of the girls that gave her dumb warnings like how I was a crazy stalker woke up to what actually happened yet? They will and they will feel very dumb. The very first reason that I lost "friends" on Facebook (we were still friends but I understand) was because I change my relationship status to taken with Kathleen Kerg (Mark should have never helped according to his last name? Kerg Berg? B = warning & k = handing) then suddenly I lost like 30 friends and nothing like this ever happened before that!? They told me while running into them that it was because she makes up lies about her ex boyfriends so I know that more people know about that than they would know that I was a "stalker" (well not anymore obviously thanks to Palm Bee who didn't stand up for herself and just helped them!) she should have looked into it more but at this point how could there not be someone blocking her!? She was probably only shown small segments of things guided by One True King that may have started because of my Facebook post that killed Screech from Saved by the Bell!? I would've expected them to help me but like I told my dad I didn't comb through my goth music enough to find the racism fast enough to get the racist hate crap off of me coming from Jews? I didn't know. Makes sense though. Thankfully the restraining order that she made (my ex girlfriend) forced her to share something violent I did or it wouldn't work... I never did anything violent.. so she wrote that I grabbed her wrist at a health food market.. lol 😂 how bad could he possibly be? At least she did that for me. How sad. And then there is the street names trying to correct the whole thing?! Palm Bee's P.O. Box found on Devonshire street where it meets Owensmouth!? Devin was the name of her ex she made up lies about, reason a bunch of people unfriended me for helping her, but he would get mad at being called his male name?devonSHire!? O = surrounding + i = justice/balancing (swap o with i  get it! Because it's before N) & n = loving

So the word Devonshire is reminding me that he goes by a woman's name! How the hell am I going to find that out? The only other drag queen that I now would be Owen so I should have asked him a long time ago and sorted this out already!?

Hopefully writing emails all day worked and I move into my new place TOMORROW! I am so sick of sleeping out of my car for this story... Duh.. the street names were responding to me though and every week at the goth clubs people would be proven that their names responded until they always believed and became used to seeing it happen for me but this should have surrounded me by cameras and reporters!? That was why I didn't find a place in LA. I was only one step away from a really nice to place or an embarrassing one while some girl was tricked into calling me a stalker!?

I would have moved on a long time ago if she confirmed that she read what I wrote and knows what she did without something like someone paying her to say one recorded sentence that her work does to trick us?! Real risk. She was sleeping with someone goes through her email? Did he show her anything ? Why? I would have helped me whe I arrived in Portland if I was him. I think it would have been his best chance to win her love. She is totally mad at him right now for trying to hide it or her soul is obviously. The way that she called me a stalker that came and danced in front of her while she was a crying wreck for a few days so no she is not going to Twitchcon. Isn't that her being mad at them for trying to hide it? They probably call her dumb for catching onto the truth. It's extreme and hard to believe at first but she should have helped me already as it only helps her! She doesn't have to touch me. Just acknowledge that I did my duty whe it came to making sure human trafficking did not happen. Has it! Must look like it to some people. From what I witnessed and some of what I share it definitely looks like a control freak trying to cut me off from meeting her or her looking into it? I guess I understand maybe she was illegal or something but I doubt she would be once we met. She didn't do it for anyone else and oh well she turns me down and I move on, she still becomes rich and famous or should have also been already!? What the hell?! Are you serious kidding me? I should have never placed so much faith in this girl. It totally helps her out though.

In just a few days I should have videos that go over all of the names and how they responded... I will have to get a bunch of people in Portland to contact her so that she doesn't have to worry about a man beating me to her Soundgarden shirt agreement or whatever her concerns were in recent days. She was scared of what guys might do when I share what Cornell street has meant and what happened in my dreams as I was sky Walker that came up behind Amberglen Park Way in a hot sexual dream she wore a white shirt and so many dreams of her married to me in the future. How else would she get this close to me without even meeting me?

Duh, I took the lie detector tests so long ago and kind of forgot about them. Maybe I should post that tomorrow already. So sick of this.... I paid for three questions. I already shown proof that I passed but it needs to be more official. Scary how people tried to mess me up. At this point a lie detector test isn't even needed anymore... 😂 I should have just got a cheap place like ANYWHERE in LA. With her help we would probably have made lots of money already. What is she waiting for?! That just proves how awful her work is obviously. They didn't hire her to help her make money. No. That is very obvious now! They should have made her meet me so that we would have been discovered a long time ago. All of the reporters would have had names that they actually witness responding to us. Who cares about anything but a pen...is.. for what? Wow!

Well? Definitely helps! For those in the beginning part of the story or they will stop reading it or watching? Too hard to believe.

Hopefully people aren't mean to Kathleen anymore although it is messed up what she did to us... I understand though because she did come to me in my sleep while I was supposed to be in a relationship with someone else. Hilarious!

If this girl doesn't want monogamy or to work with me even if this means tough times ahead somehow as if that was possible for us?! I will have to choose another even with those romantic dreams that I had. I'm worried she would cheat. My God though this day and age I should be able to make sure easily that she is happy even as an elderly woman I mean it's not exactly like we can't make videos for nobody but us to see with a self destruct button? Lol she will want to experience what she did to me somehow with the videos that I made. How? Just pick random stuff for me.. do things you know my soul is aware of that I like the most.... THAT is the kind of girl I want to go on a search and find.

According to my dreams I am supposed to hurry and ignore everyone else to find the air that kisses me on the chest though! Even other women will time things to let me know it's Palm Bee in her TikTok video where she is camouflage with the Nike "just do it" symbol.. maybe they kind of realize how bad she messed up and don't exactly worry as much... Kidding, that is not really possible. I'm not going to have dreams like that. Not me. I am NOT a slut. She was married and I met three kids. How was that not her. I am no upset... 

Hopefully move in somewhere tomorrow and right away work overtime doing anything for a speaker to perform... I had all of that stuff but my sister is being difficult.. my family was totally trying to stop me at So-no-ma county but Santa Rosa woke me up. How could a story so beautiful become completely ugly? A CHANCE for sex from either me or her.

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How sad that this girl very likely bought a house to help someone too powerful try and murder me without knowing it while continuously lied to and tricked into believing lies about how I was racist or dangerous while right now I fear that someone's sick plan is to impregnate her so that she is prevented not only from winning but it might ensure his chances that we never meet, I move on, she helps him further, or WHATEVER IT TAKES to hide the truth from her as if that could possibly help but in the mind of someone very sick the problem a very long time ago was that I was supposed to accept that it was more true what another was trying to buy that no one would have actually helped with once they knew everything... she just bought another house? She has been coming to me warning me about how I must assume the worst until I absolutely know that she is no longer being used by a sick network that only cares about stopping me from letting people know about what they have already done to me or others using what I shared that was obviously too much as it was always used against me much more than I knew since I was dumb enough this whole time to believe that others understood the truth about things so would not be driven to such evils. What happened to me coming from Facebook was truly a hate crime to the extreme as a jealous Jewish network has continuously been used to be able to place the blame elsewhere so that I would be more easily controlled or others conned and manipulated.

Very scary what was done to hide the truth from her and how sad it is that this little girl when she was young was likely targeted by a very dangerous man that actually took her like a hostage as long as she was able to keep a secret while she has been basically kidnapped in her own country and too scared to stand up against someone that powerful so I expect that she may be doing nothing more but praying to be saved or that she might be forgiven for feeling forced to help this monster for as long as she has!? Both of us should have been able to become rich and powerful by now and although we keep being blamed for everything thus being granted much more power than what was asked for by another, our opportunities and basically our lives were actually robbed I must assume since there is no such thing as an apology if something may be covered up and I was dumb every moment that I felt bad for a billionaire that I would be hearing in my head threaten our lives because he may have spied on me too much. His act must be good in order to convince the public that he is not aware of me somehow.

Scary that her life is as threatened as it is right now until we are helped tremendously more although everything that we do has been used against us while we have been forced to be pretty much caught in desperate situations where help is accepted much more than usual when it may have been the worst thing to do because of where it was coming from or what it was actually for...

I am absolutely terrified for our lives and from the beginning I fully embraced her "Jewish side" while a psycho spying on me would pay her to give me the number 88 when I had prayed for orange and brown in the bottom right of the next thing that she posted? I want to be able to use Facebook and Instagram while I know that others have already done too much to try and push us into suing them or whatever while I must assume that they have been bought off or tricked by a monster somewhere until they actually prove that they are helping me somewhere more real than timing that was hijacked by a monster?

Since 2019 I have been blocked on the other side of pretty much everything that I used on the phone and computer... coming from the worst attitude that starts with being too stubborn to apologize or admit to have made a mistake? My bandcamp view counter and YouTube as well as everything else that I have used seems to come at me with coded messages meant to drive me crazy or feel threatened while tricked into thinking that it is coming from somewhere else?

He will have to do the right thing and it should have started long ago but still has not somehow?

How could I possibly accept that he tried to help me when I have gone through all of this and all it would have taken was a few minutes of his precious time in the direction that does not HAVE TO CONTROL EVERYTHING THAT I AM DOING SOMEHOW?!

Instead of thinking that its helpful to be dishonest please wake up to how you are looking just as guilty.

There absolutely needs to be more law put into place that prevents people from setting up others to fail because of political differences or other countries constantly trying to turn us against one another while more capable of taking control of our phones and computers every day?!

Watch, he will actually ignore this as if money can cover it up and my murder would finally happen as it may have been someone's goal ever since he realized that he messed up because my work was merely using what I didn't know about my grandfather's missing finger to scare me straight as I witnessed while they were pretending to be Nazi while probably having too much fun doing this as someone likely took what they shared online too seriously but they were not really thinking about others being that clueless regarding what was going on since everyone knew that it was for me? Still, I witnessed Charles Manson die after I complained about him before my feed shown me a goth girl with handcuffs as if she was part of a network. Someone's paranoia has not ended since this happened and I am still not sure of the entire story but my rights were taken and too many were tricked into helping what they never would have if they knew where it was coming from or what it was for... I hardly think that my stupid scientific theory is really THAT threatening as time is constantly proven to be something a bit larger than what I came up with but that dangerously worked maybe in the direction that would finally help someone else not have to worry about me anymore or?

I am scared to share this, of course... as what he has already done to punish me for daring to threaten to sue Facebook was something most people would go to prison for but somehow, he has been immune? I am so thankful that the names of everyone responded to us so that the TRUTH would be known no matter how embarrassing since it would do more than just save us but help too.. she has been coming to my dreams lately asking me not to share what might yet again motivate another sick man to actually want to plan his future with her without even waking up to the living puppet with a soul crying out to several careless genitalia everywhere about how she was in tears and broke down while a stalker came and danced in front of her then has been living like a hostage of kindness because of the fear of having to FACE what he actually already did to the both of us as she never did enough to kill me or help them kill me for him to be able to trust her so what is she supposed to do?

She must be so scared right now and absolutely worried that I would feel the NEED to share this now to get help so that finally we able to do things like use our favorite app on a phone or whatever without being surrounded and controlled as if merely another's object... he owes me much more than an apology.. what he has done to us permanently messed us both up as she was always blocked much more than she knew while using whatever she used.

Wherever she is found out there hopefully she is safe and able to take a stand for herself while waking up to what her work actually did to the both of us to try and control everything or basically rule from dishonest methods that is supposed to be seen as helpful OR ELSE!

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Does the truth help you? Yes? Why? Because someone paid you to cover it up? I am truly terrified that a man could be that stubborn with that much power as if a human being cannot make a mistake or be wrong in front of other people? That is the real sickness found was someone's lack of self confidence while failing to take a stand against bullies more rather than give them more power like Facebook has. How could he be so stubborn? I guess because of a mistake already made that was plotting and planning against me that should have never happened. What is so hard about helping out someone else that called you out to do something about what was killing the people rather than do this gender identity thing or whatever it was? I have not been able to find Elizabet TV online anywhere that helped me with a song long ago and guess who was there that surrounded her with guidance that went along for vengeance rather than just admitting that the customer found a hair in the soup!? Is this because he is actually able to commit basically human trafficking to that extent? I cannot see who is found there because it helps Mark win during ONE MOMENT he didn't want his attention called upon obviously. Did she take her stuff down or did he actually bring things to that point? Elizabet was a girl that provided a sample for a song as I did something rather new while looking into the laws of making music. As an experiment I wanted to see where it would lead me if I simply "obeyed" the person on the other side of a photo or video that I was measuring for the best song the person might help me make by providing a sample. Someone was being dishonest and unwilling to admit mistakes are possible or whatever else for COURT then suddenly "Batman" appears proven by the names of people and places responding to help me that is actually proven to happen by measuring the language coming from her ancestry as well as it will try and guide the sick minds to what the more obvious healthy direction is to be found like no longer getting a cold or sitting down to pee. Seriously, don't tell me that it could be a good idea to feed any angry mob about witchcraft or how I a "on top of people" or "bad magic that must be stopped" like superstitious whatever that is the worst direction to go since it helps someone prove that what? What would you like to help participate with creating in the past? Witch hunting? What about hiding the location of women? I think that it will be important to let my "Jewish son" know that this was forever a disgusting direction for rape and human trafficking so it's important not to become the antichrist that suddenly made the entire tree go bad. Hello mistake. How many more years will a person work that opens the door for making amends. What lawsuit would be worth winning that sees my empty bank account that was ignored by an extremely wealthy person? He is only interested when he plans to come back and take from me later? Why would he even start to go there with me? I was going to Facebook jail and being harassed by my former lover to cut off the next one. It's found in his last name how that was a mistake. Kerg and Berg? What?!

Instead of appearing like the person that wants me dead so that New Berg gets to marry an open minded girl that accepts other women into his bed while he goes through his websites to sample all of them why not see New Berg as someone that had enough of being dishonest or setting up others to fal or competing or maybe just enough bullying me with powers I never asked to compete against as a threat to sue is usually a way to get the attention of a manager to fix things when something was wrong. Unbelievable, he would go there. I had this group that I made called Five Steps To The Game that was made for surprise gifting people and giving them the best experience possible like the opposite of saw but wrong because no one is pushed into anything or controlled where they don't want it obviously. Really, I must actually go to Mountainview Court for finding out why she couldn't see what I was sharing or what would have worked when it came to giving her what she wanted but I am not allowed to say this because a person is supposed to hate instead? If he did something like sleep with someone that had to be kept secret, maybe a young Amber, for example. How does he not care or notice the damage that was caused from her stress or ways of forever being held back for the rest of her life? How does it look right now when my bank account is low? See it for the truth. My bank account is NOT yours. You should definitely be worried about my not having success or money though because of the extreme things done to me for using Facebook that was even able to cut me off from meeting even the ugliest person from a dating website? They were obviously blocked. Very messed up to do to anyone. If someone was guilty for someone so you think you are doing another a "favor" . .. well wake up, because ALL of the names and heroes have proven you to be very wrong.

Know of the ways that actually proven ancient languages are responding with timing to assist in saving me from seemingly ALL of them from what I have witnessed so why would anyone want to compete with someone not even there like that? I was with humanity. Do you need some help getting out of a ditch somewhere? The kind that could fill up with corpses by ignoring the truth or not blaming ourselves. Not a betting man but pick any language that I should do next? See it yet how bad of an idea it was to compete with me while I was trying to win from complementing? If a person cannot find the best match or whatever while working and complementing this would be where a culture may be considered uncivil and should learn to work with others or be patient or win in their next life rather than the need to have everything NOW.

Does she know how she actually "obeyed" on the other side of everything that was left behind by her soul to me the most seemingly?

I made some videos how to "dream date" that was done as a sort of experiment to see where a line could be drawn regarding how our minds connect outside of time thanks to the speed of light... maybe not the brightest idea to do but in my mind I found places like how people wouldn't be taken advantage of if everyone knew but you know the way that I look so of course there is going to be a scary difference as I have tended to assume that others are like me more than they actually are!

Oops!? This sort of thing feels very evil to keep from a married couple that would deserve to be able to meet the soul of their spouse. Anyways, what I did was something very simple but basically rules that I put on dating websites that I used. I asked for red in the bottom right to show if the person want me so much she doesn't care about consequences, second photo was for orders or how I should change by showing me blue in the bottom left, third picture I asked for the conflict to be shown and purple in the top right if a one night stand could happen without being hurtful to her as she would put it on the bottom left for those that felt it did, and the forth picture I asked for a green in the top left for what we had in the end that would usually be found on the top right meaning "be grateful for what you have..." and it was here that I gave her the opportunity to say "no way" by putting green in the bottom left. This secret moment of history happened but I actually now believe that whenever I had an intimate dream of a girl it was actually Palm Bee because of what happened in the dream or whatever that would be evidence of this or a special experience for us once it is figured out as she had the same dreams on her end.

Here it shows that Palm Bee gave me ALL of the things that I asked for in such a meaningful way! I had made these dream dating videos for a few months as a sort of experiment to see if it was real so as you can see here it CLEARLY is as I was in San Rafael when I first came across her so the orders are for the turtle to sing? I guess I understand the Rafael part? Maybe making a joke because of the type of music she liked that I wouldn't care to do but I have liked everything during some moments. Not going to judge. There you have it and the brightest blue (most righteous you) is found behind me (my artist name is Spoon!)... Very romantic what this girl has done to me but how sad that she didn't have enough confidence in herself to stand up to the people trying to put down others to score without even caring about how it forever hurt us both but something was learned hopefully but WHEN?! We are pretending to be perfect humans that cannot make mistakes? For the upper green it shows yet again clear evidence that she will do what according to my dreams? Give me my wishes to become a fat-her! Yay!!! Right now I am worried that she has been blocked while another man is trying to PLANT something for the soul purpose of hiding maybe someone's guilt in the past or preventing her from going to court or telling people what happened on her end to the public? Probably just concerns though. I bet those men didn't feel any better than me when they told her about the homeless person seen touching himself. Makes more sense now why those sharing gravity would choose the name of that particular street to put whoever wants to keep her largest echo coming from the future down so that he can win? That is not civilized and should be corrected. Please start teaching them to use the letter Q and stop thinking that putting down others to score actually works because those people are most likely going to be the loneliest? Is it even possible for me to be lonely? Others have wanted me near so much that it's hard to feel like I am alone. She keeps proving it to me in ways that should be impossible to witness I had previously thought that it is really her in the future.

Did you know that she called me a stalker at the same time that she said she was crying hysterically at twichcon and wasn't going this year? Maybe her soul knows about how another tried to hide the truth from her when she did what for him? Open up their bed to another woman? Oh well. Do I have more worth here than to help her try to change someone? She claimed that she wants to be the BEST in this video but has not been "allowed" to be by who and for what reasons did they come up with? Most of it just comes from my ex girlfriend doesn't it? Other than that, it sure makes One True King look guilty for hiring her to make sure we wouldn't meet somehow but to go to the extreme lengths that they did with her is sort of like kidnapping.

When is there going to be a real man found out there that will LET HER KNOW what she did to me or is their organ that wants to be tickled always going to mean more to them?

Go ahead.

You read this, didn't you? 

She is waiting for you... What if I was SHOT for your timed pen?

I just arrived in Portland and how fun seeing the name of the street where the FBI is located being Cascades... So here it is coming from yet another disgusted SOUL shown in what they left behind!

You want to put down another to win again?

Anyways, the other songs on this album obviously respond to a future as her fingers will be a green with thee green man that the Portland prophecy spoke of but why aren't there more stags appearing in the sky from people acknowledging the Dragonlance synchronicity?

This album actually warns us about two of our children! 

I have an embarrassing past too... do I want to be with that girl or only the woman she becomes?

I wanted to do the "line up" and pick an object, etc. Be able to choose among lots of people we were celebrating with and meeting but... having my dreams kind of changed my plans and artists responding to me did things like make the album "Trapped in Amber" that previously proved they did this for my other partners too...

When are they going to let her know???

Anyone?