Famously Not Famous as a Central Observer of the Universe?
Back in the 90s some of my all-time favorite goth artists were found on Soleilmoon Recordings such as Coil, Swans, the Legendary Pink Dots, Skinny Puppy, Current 93, Death in June, Dead Voices on Air, Edward Ka-Spel, and In Gowan Ring who happened to be from Salt Lake City originally so I knew them personally. Anyone who knew of these bands or albums would have automatically been considered cool instead of being called names such as baby bat among the goth crowd. They were a lot more picky than other scenes and would not accept what was close to goth but not quite such as the American music made using distorted guitar such as Nine Inch Nails or Marilyn Manson. Only a poser would be seen with shirts from those bands as they were not considered good for the club environment but there was one good song by them called Ringfinger that was accepted for the dance floor because of minimal guitar used and the epic ending.
Lucky me compared to the others!
My Mother was a flight attendant and I was able to fly anywhere in the world for free as standby... so I was leaving the state on average a few times every year.. a lot of the judgement found in the goth scene was only directed at everything American.
I used to share a music space with members from In Gowan Ring as part of one of their side-projects called Jenny Greenteeth where I performed live and recorded some music like a song for a movie soundtrack but we did not make it much further as I got into some trouble with the law and developed a costly drug habit that had consumed much of my young adult life... regardless, I never stopped following my musically inclined friends and was a very big fan most especially of everything involving Edward Ka-Spel as I could not find anything darker or as scary so I would promote his work everywhere that I had went having fun with the reaction I might get from neighboring Mormons.. things looked bright for us at first as I was nearing the end of my teenage years and my friends would plan for things such as going to Europe to tour and would speak of staying with one of the members from the Cure they knew or perhaps among friends of the dots but instead of saving up the money for this like we were supposed to things went into a downward spiral for us and our big dreams had turned into a costly nightmare very fast.
I always thought that I was ugly until I use my memory and realize that I was lucky to have two beautiful little sisters who were trying to find a guy at school like me so this helped as the prettiest girls in the school older than me were obviously practicing in the mirror for running into me in the hallway as I was in Salt Lake City but not as a Mormon like most of the kids so this usually won some points regarding how cool I was while adults tried to take my virginity often since only thirteen years old but most especially when I moved out into my own apartment at only fifteen where I started to practice a tantric sex magic someone taught me from the college of massage.
Most people might think that going three years without ejaculating must be impossible or a lie that I had made up or exaggerated but this was part of my training that was not as hard as it might sound since enjoying an erection or sex was not against the rules.
It involved going upstairs together and then trying to turn on the lights that would not work forcing me to test my bravery by going to flip on a switch alone in the closest room nearby above the stairs where I saw an old man wearing overalls now believed to be my grandfather before he died glowing blue just like lost loved ones seen in the Star Wars movies standing where my rat cage was found.
This light switch flickered would not work as well and behind me my sister ran away so I followed and woke up on the way away from where I saw him outstretching his arm as if begging me for help.
After we moved out of this house I broke in with a friend while it was out on the market again between owners to go to the spot where this ghostly man appeared to try and make contact with a prayer.
On the way out right as the thought came that he was not real despite the other encounters outside of the dream that had inspired us to go suddenly the ceiling fan shook like an Earthquake happened as if to counter my doubt and prove a presence was there.
I was practicing shamanism that I would read about without a teacher but confident in my own ability to tap into anything real if at all possible and there were times when I was able to let others know what numbers they were thinking about or looking at several times in a row without failing so the practice did go somewhere but I would not believe anything without witnessing proof and still with that might come doubt that I placed meaning where it otherwise would not be found even though I had been called a psychic for helping others find a missing item more than once when asked almost immediately that was very lost and searched for before I was tried.
On the day that I lost my virginity I was eighteen and woke up to a voice that sounded like my Dad in my head telling me that I would lose it on that day which I forgot about until that night after dancing a bunch of women came over to my house and while most were inside I went out to the car to smoke with a girl who used to be a drummer for my band with another girl who startled us by suddenly driving off while ignoring whenever she was asked to stop.
While in the backseat silent to myself I remembered the voice I woke up to so thought that maybe she was trying to figure out a way to be alone with me as she brought us to the avenues where suddenly she stopped her car and announced that she was too drunk to drive so we had to go inside to spend the night with her friend despite leaving a bunch of women at my house unattended.
One of the other ladies left at my house would have normally done everything in her power to stop her as she had a crush on me and was a bit controlling so she had to be out of the picture completely was my guess.
While inside when the drunk driver was done with the tub she came out in a towel and laid down on a bed near me in a guest room so I knew to lay beside her and wait for the others to leave.
Once they left the room she suddenly turned to kiss me while awake as ever as if she had only been pretending then removed her towel showing me much better than I had expected.
This gal knew what to do as she showed me several sexual positions while rubbing her own clit until such cute sounds came out as climax was reached and then she apologized to me since I did not have a turn like she did but this was intentional as I would not orgasm for the tantric sex magic practices reasons.
When I saw her at the bar after this happened I knew she got into trouble with our friends as if I was an innocent boy taken advantage of by her and she apologized again as if she had done something wrong but she was unbelievable in bed so I was very thankful and since this day never witnessed anyone quite like that and this might only be described as what happened in the movie 'the Mallory Effect' which was made by someone who knew the both of us and her name rhymed so I think that I figured out there was a connection.
Mallory err Valerie moved to Portland so I am a bit tempted to look her up recently since I am technically single and looking while I find it funny that her real name is close to Valentine's Day. The word 'valen' when understanding the origins of letters might mean to go to a bar or social gatherings to find sex.
If you have seen this movie and am wondering what she did in bed that was so great that gave the "Mallory Effect" it was because she would surprise her partner as she did not wear sexy clothes that revealed her great body in public and she had the goal to get herself off during intercourse with an incredible drive that knew what to do like a man so when her orgasm was reached there was no way of stopping one might be surprised at such unbelievably cute sounds following that were such unique and cute squeaks?
I got a fake ID in my late teens thanks to a friend who went to the DMV wearing my unique rose-colored prescription glasses after he practiced my look with the same makeup I wore that no one else would do using black lip liner around shiny metallic purple.
While waiting the girl who asked me if I wanted a cookie gave me her number and became my girlfriend after she confessed having a romantic dream of me when I called that I assumed was a lie but now that I know more about how lovers go into the past where we go to sleep I might finally believe her.
Charissa eventually got into trouble by dropping her plans to start school out of state for an opportunity to be with me so I accepted because she wanted it so bad that I thought she might be less likely to cheat or leave but I was wrong.
The entire time I was with her I never ejaculated and I doubt I was good in bed like she would tell her friends while making sure I could hear. When she finally confessed to me that she was cheating I was not getting mad so she hit me a bunch and told me that we had to break up because of my being too perfect as it made her look like a monster since everyone would always love me while hating her for it.
The last time that stayed with this girlfriend she tried to convince me to sleep with another girl we met at a rave while we were at her place who was so beautiful but when I started to kiss her it felt too unfamiliar and weird.
Recently, I had shown her the miracle that was how she would get whatever color she picked in the specific location she would ask for it and we went through pictures of Orthodox Cathedrals witnessing proof that they were responding to our minds as she would get what she chose and asked for out loud without failing once several times in a row!
After her, I slept in the same bed as a beautiful lesbian for almost a year without having sex so people thought sometimes that I had to be gay since we would only kiss and cuddle. She was so much fun to go clubbing with as we would always have the goal to kiss the hottest girls to be found which never failed.
It felt like everyone liked my company everywhere that I went as I had a lot of beautiful friends but I do remember getting into trouble once when I drank at a dance club from kissing random women who were not exactly single that I did not know because they gave me an inviting look... maybe five in one night?
For years, I attended 80's night on Thursdays at Area 51 in Salt Lake City and would sit with my friend Deja who was dating Billy Corgan from Smashing Pumpkins and Linda Strawberry who made music with him and so we have hung out until morning exchanging songs on my guitar together.
Surprising how much a person could be ruined from one party that I had at my house for friends such as the famous DJ Marci Wiser currently known for being on the radio in LA who was going to make a children's book with me. Much later dancefloor DJs performed on the main floor such as Simon from the local party scene and Nexus from the local rave scene while Nebula from Club Bricks which was the largest dance club did not show and was later told how much he missed out I remember seeing his surprised look as he was expecting a small gathering.
This one night completely ruined my carpet and my life in some ways as too many people did not obey the flier that had shown them where to park so my neighbors could not use the same road that I lived on so the cops raided my house the next morning giving me a weed charge that prohibited me from leaving the country like we had planned until I finished their program.
In order to pass a drug test for weed I forced myself to use meth I heard would help me pass because of how it cleaned the system which absolutely terrified me but it worked which led to older women introducing me to everything else to get closer starting with ecstasy while hoping we would become intimate.
After I moved out I lived with my sister known as "Good Jen" in the goth scene among maybe a dozen of others? I eventually went to jail for failing a drug test where I met Jeeroy and was introduced to Mario with a network that would be an illegal immigrant showing up in a car with balloons in his mouth after a phone call from seven in the morning until nine at night.
Nobody wants to go to world -1 in Super Mario Bros as that would be what exactly...?
After a long time of living hungry while locked up as a prisoner I finally tried a chicken sandwich because someone from the kitchen told me that it was not real meat and mostly made of soy so this convinced me to cheat after almost seven years of being vegan.
After the last swallow I felt like a drug had taken my body with a kind of numbness as I woke up to being in my body as a human being with a name as if doing this for the first time and so I went to the mirror as I could not believe what I was witnessing that I was actually there in existence as who I am but the body felt new to me and I was feeling surprised to have life at all then when I went to bed I had a dream of being the turkey that I ate while living the entire life of the birds so I woke up feeling guilty for knowing what was taken from the bird but thankful how much he never knew this to be true as the life was not as bad as I had originally expected because of being there among others of his kind.
I lost my identity seemingly from no longer being vegan as they did not respect my diet tray request while I was locked up so I had to do things such as make kites for trading my meat for vegetables every day so I did not want anyone to see me when I got out and just chased my next injection for awhile.
Waiting until seven came in the morning or making one last call at nine before they stopped became something that I would do almost daily when more people found out about my connection so I would be typically spending somewhere around 200-400$ daily and paying the rent was done by simply cutting down for a few days.
Is it possible that there was a connection to Jerry Jenkins found in the World of Warcraft game? What if there was another guilt trip reason that my videos never went viral but someone else would that might be about what only I would know about!?
Something to wake me up to how much I was actually spied on so all of the conversations with cell mates or whatever that I had was recorded over an intercom discreetly while doing time locked up?
My good friend that I knew just happened to be in jail in the same section as me for driving under the influence so we became roommates and when I met Leeroy who was being deported he gave me some heroin he just happened to have smuggled in while I was dope sick and also a number to his main cartel that had a deal for a free balloon for every ten purchased that I took full advantage of for years!
The picture that I drew for his wife was probably the most beautiful that I had ever made for anyone? It was a forest in the shape of a heart with a path winding down the center of many trees with the leaves intricately drawn with a hidden face of death to be found for the person who noticed in the bark looking like Grim Reaper pointing a boney finger.
I had to move away from the city to get off of drugs and my addiction became replaced by online video games that were competitive usually called player vs player massively multiplayer online role-playing game. Leeroy Jenkins had a whole new meaning for me since I was living with Jen when I met Leeroy while it was also now true that he did likely kill some of her most fond kin like the love of her life with the same name as me as if to rub in the importance of my quitting. Too many people have died from drug overdose that I have known and most of them I warned and told them how it would happen but they did not listen. This particular person thought that it was safe to go back to injecting a dose of heroin after a long break and would do it in a way that was extremely fast without taking any time to feel it enter like others have done to more safely measure what might be too much.
Fat balloons of coke or heroin for only ten dollars each while I always got a free one when I purchased ten. From the days I used to use drugs and sometimes spent three hundred dollars every day I have seen the same stuff six times more expensive right around the corner but I never wanted to sell it for profit. Why bring this up? Because the drawing that I made for his wife Becky which was the price of that contact that was so beautiful as I must have spent maybe forty hours on it or so? A heart shaped forest with a trail going around some trees that had one with the Grim Reaper found in the trunk who was pointing... it might have been the most impressive piece of artwork that I ever made? Tiny leaves and berries drawn.. it looked real.
I was seemingly part of the reason that it was written in the reviews for the movie Titanic that people would repeatedly go to see this film because I worked in the parking booth so the same groups of girls would scream at at me on their way out several days in a row so it might be possible that my drug use had inspired my doppleganger Leonardo DiCaprio to get a role for the film Basketball Diaries. I wonder if a certain Italian someone knew about this since I was asked to participate in something homosexual in order to get my fix while I was sick after watching the movie showing his character suck on a man for coke but once he found that it was impossible to arouse me he told me that I was definitely not gay and just gave me some money before disappearing.
I thought that the movie Napoleon Dynamite had some funny familiar things tied to me since they used to call folks "the bomb" in the 80s and my Father fought in the Vietnam War that began where French were involved while I may have been known for dancing confidently as I have had more practice than most people while clubbing, raving, and partying for at least half a dozen hours per week or more?
Definitely voted for Pedro... Whoops!
While incarcerated I came up with a way to combine two words into one ribbon design showing white letters found inside of black ones that I sold for food that was easy to earn money with compared to my other artwork no matter how good it was drawn because the prisoners liked to see the name of their girl found in the design as if it would somehow be enough to wait for him while some claimed to be giving themselves a tattoo with it later on during their sentence for those on their way to prison?
During my early twenties I missed many years of my life from getting in and out of trouble and became known as a drug dealer among my friends so a certain Sarah Brightman song called Eden I used to think was possibly for me that was shown in the windows everywhere at Mormon owned establishments because of my name being Adam?
She looked somewhat goth in her video while singing "I never tried to be in your Eden" in front of a tub as if she knew I needed to stay clean but I never heard this song until I was dope sick when it was part of the soundtrack I heard every day while fixing up my older brother's first bought house. He resold this property I spent hours on every day fixing up for cash and earned 30k from the sale.
Northern Idaho was needed to clean up so that I had no way of getting anything even if I wanted it and this turned my life around completely immediately as I was able to get what might have been the absolute best job in all of Idaho in terms of how much fun it was as a computer technician.
I was glad to put my foot in the door as a contractor to move computers at first without any experience but in my free time I played games online against others and built my own setup which was enough to be able to fix any problem almost since a fix could be rebuilding while occasionally maybe needing a google search because of how far simple logic goes in that kind of environment while the programming language, layout, and design like artwork, music, television, or movies responded to me as well so whenever I am stuck it is extremely easy to know how to fix it by thinking about how I would have made it if it were me then it comes super easy to figure out. Now I am able to witness why. They made the computer to show someone like me. My opinion matters so the people who built it responded to what I thought about and went through as a user. Maybe it has something to do with being more grateful than others and more fun?
Finally, I had a good career and found a local girl who owned a house to move in with due to the rule that I made up against dating coworkers. Although, I did spend the night with someone I was afraid of doing anything that might attach us?
While living with Sierra I was scared that she was evil and so I snuck into her diary where she wrote of a dream she had sex with a dragon in the back seat of a car which reminded me of my little sisters friend who told me in a note I still have to this day that I was with her in the backseat in her dreams and she liked me because she thought that it was hot that I stopped touching her when asked.
She is Mexican from her Father's side and the Mayan Calendar ended when our relationship did as she did not want to move away so we planned for something short term while together and knew it would end... she did not want any children either while I had grown attached to her daughter that I hated to lose!
Years later while living in Portland after I had forgotten all about this ex-girlfriend I had an intimate dream of her in the back seat of a car where I became the dragon she wrote about in that passage that I remember coming across so I wondered if it was wrong that the girl was underage perhaps on her end but from my perspective I thought she knew I was used to a bigger older version of her as she had a certain look in her eyes being that of someone who wanted me to see how attractive she was during her youth.
I woke up to what seemed to be my roommate hissing through the walls around the time that I was kicked out for leaving the gas on just like what was mentioned in a goth song from my favorite artist making me wonder if he somehow knew about what was going on with me!?
This kind of changes things considering others must do the same thing as me without realizing it? Does this mean that gay lovers might dream about being with a partner that is a child which took part in turning this person homosexual? What about that teacher who slept with a child who was one of her students? Is it possible that while locked up as an adult he went to her many times before she had committed the illegal deed perhaps with the aid of a picture she gave him in the future after they had already been caught so he would be doing nothing wrong when in reality could have been causing a dream that would inspire her to be willing to cross such a line in the past?
What about someone who was a rapist murderer doing time in death row or maybe a mental health facility for the rest of his life? What goes on in their mind in the future will effect those thought about in the past possibly in a way that is disturbing to a victim. What if he or she has nothing better to do than lucid dream as that might be the most realistic way to be able to rape another where we all share our most relaxed state? Would this dream be helpful to the victim in knowing what or maybe who to avoid or might this do things that might push them into mistakes that were previously made?
I have never understood the bondage scene in the goth crowd and always avoided any situation that might be confused for something that encourages rape. I don't think that I would be able to get an erection like I would normally once anything violent or not wanted was involved. I guess I cannot say much in the department since I need to me more bold and daring so I have never even given someone the opportunity to tell me "no" . .. I have always made sure my partner wanted me first with an inviting look at least.
This realization made me a feel a bit more sympathetic and understanding when it came to some of the teachers or adults that would show me nudity or do things such as rub against me in a inappropriate way since as an adult I have done things like remember these times and fantasize about what this person may have let me do if I took things a step further or simply just remember about what happened while pleasuring myself? Would this mean that the person felt it in the past inspiring something that was crossing a line that was not supposed to be crossed for the man that she knew I would become seen as a boy I once was?
Why was it so difficult to accept that I was not ugly when teachers or adults could be doing things like getting aroused from being too close to me?
How sad so much time went by before realizing that women are much the same way as men with the same drive and motivations centering around sex. Would the only difference between us be a brief monthly break from the period?
One of the reasons might be how much more I catch onto or notice how I am treated differently if I am wearing makeup in the same way that a woman might be throughout her day while interacting with other people as without it others may be completely rude where it is obvious they would not have been if makeup was worn? What about the clothing that women wear and how it will show their nudity or skin exposed more than the men in some ways? By wearing a kilt most especially with the gladiator sandals that are strapped all the way up the thighs I will have to do things like tightened the lace that holds it up in the same way a garter belt is fastened so I will notice that women will react in the same way that men would if a woman was adjusting her clothing in public potentially showing nudity if there is an accident. Before I was doing this I never knew women were the same way because men were gross in my eyes but they are capable of giving the same sudden uncontrollable rush of feelings that might make the heart rate increase or make a person feel like maybe their buttons might pop off?
While locked up for some time that was long enough to really miss the sight of a woman so I was getting into lucid dreaming to be able to do things that might otherwise be impossible. I would make a stereo appear in my dream so that I could listen to a favorite record all the way through although the timing was not perfect and it would tend to skip to my favorite parts but it was almost as realistic as listening to music while awake.
Once during a dream it seemed just as real as if I was awake while I sat and pulled apart a leaf that was on the ground in a way that really got to know the leaf as touching it let alone the feel or smell of it should have been impossible yet it was happening.
I told my friend I was smoking with outside of my Mom's place somewhere very familiar that I should be in jail asleep as I knew I did not get out so must be dreaming so he laughed while assuring me that I just smoked too much and asked me to pinch myself so I did and I felt it just as if I would if I were awake.
Something inside of me somehow knew it was a dream while we started to walk to his house and so I started to try and look at things I normally would not notice like maybe the color or details of a neighbor's mailbox while telling myself that I had to remember everything perfectly so that I could verify it all later when I would wake up and return. Once we hit the road things became chaotic and more like a regular dream as I just decided to make a car full of beautiful women appear to give us a ride so that we did not have to walk the whole way. I remember somewhere in the dream was a maple tree found and when it was I had promised myself never to forget its location as by doing so would prove that I had actually gone there somehow outside of my head but unfortunately the location of this was forgotten when I actually searched for it later in life when I got out.
For some time I would challenge myself to wake up while still inside my dream to test the limits of what my brain was capable of. This inspired me to read a book in my sleep that was supposed to be impossible but it worked. During this same dream I decided to keep the tests going and went through paintings of others and then started to run through other people's buildings to look at everything and take in my surroundings faster than what should have been possible but there seemed to be no limit so I needed a bigger challenge. This led to creating a courtyard full of strangers as I knew from being an artist that it would be impossible for me to imagine what a unique face looked like easily let alone more than one since I have tried to draw people before and found this task difficult. Faster than what I knew was possible I was looking at one unique face and then moving onto the next immediately grabbing their faces with my hands as if it helped me to take in all of their features? I tried to look at as many faces as I possibly could when suddenly the grotesque appearance of an individual not like the others appeared in the crowd and when I gave him my attention others seemed to give us room inbetween as he spoke telepathically letting me know that I looked the same as him and eyes were seen covering his entire body from head to toe while three major ones came out like tentacles from his forehead.
Another night I woke up to being in control of everything while aware that I was sleeping so I decided to make a beautiful woman appear so that I could have sex but when I went to tear her clothes off she responded negatively and told me that just because she was in my dream it did not mean that she was not real so I blushed like I would with a real person and started to apologize but she understood as I thought everything in my dream was merely part of my subconscious mind.
My youngest sister's friend who lived in Rome with her came to me in a dream first before I met him in real life and we walked around a garden talking about what he represented in my subconscious mind. He would give me a knowing look as if he was real and I would know someday. Many years later she introduced me to him before he died and now I know more after sleeping on the spot where my other friend died how to bring him to me during my sleep so that we could talk. They are definitely aware and while alive had the same dreams that I had but from their own perspective while I am not sure if they are in our heads while dead riding the light found inside or if they are coming to us while they lived which would mean that our subconscious minds always knows the end since we are doing a great many things in the brains of others after we died.
I am preparing to be famous and am going through everything with a broom for the day that I will be able to use commercials and advertising for waking up the public to a great many things helping me sell!
I started to wake up in my late 30s to how everything was seemingly synchronized to my previous thought until it felt like I had lost all privacy and even the most embarrassing memories that I had would be shared with the public and known by all of the world seemingly... I started to drink alcohol and this perhaps caused my first porphyria attacks as I found out through my aunt that my grandfather had purple urine and would get a mysterious dot on his forehead similar to mine that my girlfriend probably gave me as I slept like a hickey?! She told me that he thought that everything was about him like he was famous and the airplanes in the sky had something to do with him during his crazy episodes.
I do not watch television or movies anymore like I used to because it feels like I am the composer of them by some degree as I fear of being the "monster" on the Twilight Zone that would be the kid with the special gift that chooses what they do with his mind that they have to follow because what I witness is that they are always impossibly timing everything to win my approval somehow or get help from my brain sharing the same light or sound as a collective that could use help?
For example, while watching a cartoon I am able to ask with my mind for them to do things for me in the next slide such as putting a certain color in a special location to prove that it is really happening to me with a random generator.... I am able to ask for things with my mind that they will always give me and this is something I have demonstrated to the public often.. like at a bar I have told someone to look up the sixteenth picture on his phone to find purple in the top left more than anywhere else that had to do what what we were talking about and then after he witnessed this do it again by letting him know that there would be green in the top left the most of whatever video he picked exactly one minute in.
While working full time in a career building computers I wanted to get on medication for ADD (something that I was diagnosed as a child but never took anything for) such as Adderall but did not want to get it from a doctor where I would be expected to take it everyday and then watch my tolerance go up from the pills no longer working or whatever putting me on the same rollercoaster ride that too many people in our country get stuck on while I believe that it should be illegal to give out medicine without the plan to get off of it.
Anyways, I started to take Adderall once a week when my boss would come to work so that I would not be let go while the company Coldwater Creek was going out of business and people were getting laid off everywhere.
My boss got the community together to teach me a lesson with some sort of reverse psychology AA meeting? I went to AA with a networking engineer from work who was part of our team and won awards for making homemade brews. Someone with gaudy jewelry and a Hawaiian shirt looking like someone from a mafia flick came in to sit at the end of the table and when his turn came introducing his name and that he was an alcoholic he added that he was also drunk then asked everyone at the table one at a time whether or not they were serious about wanting his help to stay clean. Everyone said yes including me then I went to get some coffee while finding it odd that no one else was interested as the pot had sat there for some time undisturbed. When I drank the coffee I was startled by what seemed to be coke found in it as my lips went numb and saw that there was something not right around this meeting. Turned out being something called "cat poop coffee" but that seemed to be something for covering the truth perhaps? After this meeting I was seemingly followed everywhere that I went and if I smoked or drank alcohol whatever I would be doing would somehow participate in selecting a color that would be carried by others to what sounded like saws along with someone screaming and then I would run into someone with metal shins.
I was living with my girlfriend named Sierra during this time and the Macintosh happened to come out with an operating system called "High Sierra" that year as if they also knew what happened but this would be no surprise because of what I witnessed that involved a lot of strangers having fun waking me up to various crazy scenarios.
For awhile during this time when I would go to the store someone would have a notepad and take notes regarding everything that I had liked and then the entire place would be revamped while months later someone would start talking to me out of nowhere to thank me for it since the stock market was changing more for me than other people as everyone noticed how I was setting new trends to follow as someone who had moved to the country from the city everyone talked about but I did not want to look too weird with a personal dislike for tattoos or other permanent artwork like piercings that might take away one's beautiful naked or opportunity to become the next top actress or actor for their American dream or whatever? I was told by others that they had made some money from investing in what I was interested in but some of this was ruined from my interest in becoming vegan again which heavily added to the insanity more than any other reason as I started to notice the animals everywhere timing what they were doing to help me and people on the other side of artwork, pictures, or videos always synchronizing as well as if trying to wake me up to something better that may save them all from our previous ways of living sharing caged coughs without checking the temperature of the animals eaten among other things.
It was a form of mind rape from my perspective but whenever I would ask for some hope or faith in my mind a dove carrying something would be perfectly timed for flying ahead of where I was headed or whatever... honestly, before I was aware of how intelligent the animals actually were it was a rather hellish experience since the understanding that human beings are the smartest creatures actually brought forth some of the darkest and most disturbing realities. I would do things such as go on a long drive feeling like everyone was following me and then suddenly it would lift off of me so it may have come from some kind of eye of nature. In reality a flock of birds or something along those lines had decided to stop following?
I was obsessively washing my hands due to smoking and working in a professional environment so at times my hands would tickle from shaking another person's... while other times someone may have intentionally put something like mace into something that I touched or maybe a handshake somewhere and this combined with the medication that the mental health professionals gave me made things MUCH WORSE leading me to think that they were drugging me against my will everywhere while always putting things around me one step ahead and behind.. I would not be able to sleep for a week at a time due to the stress that came from everything that was happening at once mostly because of people I lived with who seemingly tried to keep me awake.
What I tried to take as medicine made me so sick that I could not stop drooling to some degree as I was too spooked to share what was going on as the television and radio seemed to be following everything that I was doing which was supposed to be impossible.
The Gaelic language responds to me and will sound just like English always having to do with what I was thinking about as if answering in what sounds like an English response. The very first sentence that I heard sounded like "come back to the tit" for example.
I thought that I saw a list of various names that I have been called by people spying on me...
The song mentions beginning 200 Miles away which would be where Moses Lake is found?
We went and saw them perform live during this tour in Portland which was not a far drive from where I was located...
As human beings WE ARE ALL RELATED SOMEWHERE BACK THERE and what brought us here is over a million years old so everything that we do may echo back so it is better to be part of the helpful echo rather than the hurtful one?
When I wake up near a public place capable of hearing people talk it is impossible not to notice how they will say things that have to do with whatever I was dreaming about as I am waking up while this also comes from the animals too so this leads me to believe that the higher power always helping us where we share our most relaxed state might be the brain of a whale we use much like maybe insects may use ours for knowing where the best spot for laying eggs may be during the winter as our heavier weight is capable of bending time for everything smaller so this might be what the much heavier whales are actually doing for us constantly as obviously when one enters the pull of gravity consciousness is found from what might be the greater collective.
Because of the speed our minds have that is like bright in that time slows down as we approach the speed of light so it would be accurate to notice how every thought feels known by the all seeing eye of nature or maybe gravity since others are picking up every thought at a different time.
When a person believes that their thoughts are witnessed by everything around them they are a lot more likely to catch onto proof that shows this is true.
Right now your whole world might be flipped upside down if you suddenly lived as if there was no privacy and that every creature found in a photo, video, or painting is capable of seeing you or what else is found outside of the captured light just like they are really looking at whatever is found on the other side.
You will notice by checking that they will always be looking at whatever is most meaningful from the other side as part of the captured light that I first noticed while editing home grown intimate videos showing myself and my girlfriend having sex that was thrown together with a bunch of random photos of her to help the visuals as she was very pretty.
Soon I caught onto how the people found in the photos always did their best to make sure they could see the action found in these private videos of sexual intercourse as if they really could in their subconscious minds so if you try and do some experiments with this you will definitely find the same results!
To get away from feeling naked or as if every thought was important or known by others I tried to listen to only a foreign language of any sort with headphones for some time so that what I could understand did not happen to be about whatever it was that I was thinking but eventually this did not work as I would notice the same thing happening but the difference being the words sounding like the perfect response to whatever my mind was found in English was actually another language with a completely different meaning!
"Crazy.. Daddy.. who spoke? And woke?"
This was how I figured out Stonehenge or about the ring and the school for the elements found in the pentagram our ancestors followed for thousands of generations or more as I found that it was accurate when asking questions with my mind another language would seemingly answer without consciously knowing it made possible by the speed of light slowing down time from being so fast and our minds being something similar.
We had our maypole secret embarrassments though just like the toughest neighbor who was in the most denial to the point of hurting anyone who dared bring up what might have happened?
I was grateful that my Mother had a mole on her neck that I would look at as a baby as if that would somehow explain the innocence that was the boy who had a penis that looked almost the same as Arabs reading my mind and knowing all of my memories would surely judge me less than?
The curse that came from having a red haired best friend was becoming an adult who only had red found in the beard which is a funny coincidence since my Mom bought me a Captain Redbeard Lego pirate ship as a kid.
While my mind would be proved from having this perspective I would pretend that every person was perfect and never had an age of curiosity or played with neighbors they were embarrassed of who like to choose date more than truth while playing games.
As if to slap me in the face to get over it already the Irish language is called "Gay-lick"? Okay, I think that I am going to live. What is the worst that could happen? I think about a baby being screwed in the eye socket of the skull around conservatives in public or maybe imagine the absolute worst memories that never really happened but how would anyone know the difference if they were capable of reading my mind?
Another time I thought that I saw him again but this time he was in a cave making a model city polished out of rock in the darkness where it was very quiet and completely away from where people may venture. He was feeling betrayed and wondering how it was possible others did some messed up things to him and he seemingly asked me what I was as if I was a hallucination he had or something? It happened for just a moment that I time stamped on YouTube when I made a video of my puppy talking during the part he asked how could anyone eat dog as a result of finding out about dogs eaten in China.
While double checking and making certain that I had no sexually transmitted disease by doing blood work at a hospital this really woke me up to the reasons that a Jew might have been poked with a spear during the times of Christ as it likely was from a rotting liver that was found or caught from sexually transmitted disease? After a person died the difference would have been obvious if cut open so it is possible that they would have dated others to drink the blood because the knew that even the most attractive man was capable of killing or making the blood turn.
Back when I had this dream I went outside for a walk and heard the angry birds tell me to jump off of a bridge at one point when there was bad timing but they were doing the opposite when there was good timing but it was hard to believe that they were doing that to me or that intelligent so I would try to shrug it off at the time and simply move on but while going to see where my car was towed that I ended up giving away as I did not drive until I was 28 and did not feel it was very needed over a bicycle or the transit system that they had in Portland at the time... so I just gave it away to that towing company and while there I picked up a bunch of healthy treats because I saw a bunny and left them all over the place so the little fluffy ball would have a sort of heavenly week or whatever? When this had happened the birds were suddenly very interested in who I was an they had followed where I took the bus home all the way as people were looking at them while we were on the train as if shocked that they were able to stay on me for that long distance and they came down and landed in front of my apartment building in downtown Portland. The next couple weeks a pigeon stayed outside and pretended to be stupid as they spied on me while I was going around feeding them bread a bit more than usual.
When I had come across someone following me on Facebook who was shaving his own neck I had also saw someone who was Arabic living in NYC making alarming posts about giving up and perhaps taking other people with him so I had tried to send some timed prayers on my side to help as the birds assisted so much that they had actually flown with a star and crescent moon in the sky that I had captured on my phone but unfortunately when this video was uploaded to my computer the quality did not pick up what the phone captured. For reasons such as this I am hoping that my phone company has the real copy of this video and if they do not of course it would be worth it to take a lie detector test whenever anyone doubts ANY part of my story at all as I have absolutely nothing to hide anymore.
Of course, it is not respectful to bring up things in the past that are not good for the children to follow like how I may have messed up during my 'Maypole' phase of childhood or the various addictions that I have had but outside of that there really is absolutely nothing at all because I feel that its important for me to make amends. What is wonderful about returning to Portland is knowing how I have never stolen anything from any person or store here the three times that I had lived here.
So while living with my Dad in Minnesota he was too scared to face reality in the same way Kurt was and the both of them were feeling very shamed of everything coming from what might be the birds talking or the insects capable of trying to bring them to the most embarrassing or humiliating place whenever thought of among other things so he was trying to help me to save him along with myself while telling me that all of them should have done what I did when it came to cleaning up and picking up the cigarette butts not afraid of being naked in the public but there is a scary rollercoaster ride that goes up for giving a person the best experience that must inevitably come down bringing them to what might be something capable of killing most people... so long as they survive it than it will go back up again as the people are very thankful for the minds helping them where they sleep by not giving up and carrying everything negative to be met positively perhaps for something like my sixteen scented celebration that for a lot of people its a private celebration since maybe he might win every time against everyone but then choose to fail when it comes to having a one on one (like my Father in a boxing match) due to being shy or whatever?
"I tried hard to have a Father but instead I had a Dad..." (Fat her?) He was not believing in himself enough to have faith in other people and I left knowing how dangerous it was giving him all the knowledge that I knew was needed to save him from everything endangering him as well as prevent him from being able to kill himself but this apple of knowledge is capable of killing a person just from being so good as without enough money its actually too dangerous perhaps since he might just be laying in bed too excited to sleep because Disney Land or Christmas could be tomorrow or the help needed to save his Mother since it was a miracle that I was sharing but no one there was caring while seemingly just trying to take advantage of us or try to get him out of the picture somehow since he would not "believe" or go along with "having faith like he should" in the eyes of too many other people who were honestly doing more harm than good since they would only spy with a lot of money or help along with an "only if" or "if only" plan that we were expected to follow in order to get it?
It was constantly interfering with me the people and minds found on the other side of whatever thinking "he will be rich very soon" or whatever without actually doing more to help like contact me directly when came to someone with more than artwork to give or whatever as there is such a thing as money, power, or being capable of directing traffic in order to save the lives of the people found all over in this country. It was important for me to do a lot of hard work as I was away from people so it was much safer as the usual problems that would come from being 'disabled' was not found out in the country so mowing the lawn or other things were important for me to do so that I would return to building muscle and working out along with all the other ways it was important to follow him more than anyone else but he was too nice and typically put too much trust in other people while being more beautiful a lot of the time so it felt like there was nothing bur betrayal whenever we would try to get help from the "right side" or whatever else could have been out there compared to what it could have or should have been.
"Only if" + "If only" comes from the left side too... neglect is a serious thing.. but I am thankful to have had an idea of what it would have been like should my parents had stayed together or whatever but at what cost would come with such a thing since I would not have woken up myself or other people in the ways that I did while getting myself out of the absolute hell or torment that came from finding ways to enjoy suffering and covering for other people constantly who I would make up excuses for outside of my own family that kept bringing me down with them but not to the point of committing the same crimes that they had committed?
"Queen Kelly" "DJ Simon"
She was the first person to give me 'dope' that was honestly not as bad as the other crimes others had committed being selling me incense or something while calling it opium maybe as a teenager?
She cut me off not allowing me to become addicted through her but I was able to find my own connection from how broken our correctional facilities was in Salt Lake City, Utah... where I had found probably the best connection in that state..
Thelma & Louis was not the best 'role-models' to follow but for some women that I grew with they might have been something that they could relate to although I do not want to share what could have made another person "famously cool in the eyes of someone younger than them..." so regarding Kelly the orphan or whatever that I had a secret crush on she reminded me of home since he was much tougher than other people like my Dad or his family in regards to knowing how to get by with less without complaining in many ways (maybe not so much when it came to getting something through her Dad?)... as I was a baby who did not cry.. and maybe this comes from working harder on improving myself when I should have asked for more help from my parents and been more honest about what had actually happened or what I was really running from when it came to shameful memories or other things we did not want to face while going along with those other who also found a way not to remember the "oops" from the 80s or whatever as it did not only "suck" but also "licked" perhaps from a dog or maybe a dog loved another dog like a gay dog that absolutely tormented an entire family because the dog had an opening in his behind that made the people look guilty for things that they weren't! And if they were they were likely just children who deserve to grow up to an age with enough people around that understand not to hit below the belt in such a devastating way as some parents may have lost a "war hero Daddy" fighting in another country or "divorce may have happened" that was extremely common everywhere since the photos and cameras had appeared in our homes and it may have been distracting in ways we had previously understood due to a future echo using these photos or maybe others having lustful thoughts or dreams while connecting to the people on the other side?
This is something to wake people up to for this sixteen scented celebration that is a private celebration for some people but is not trying to hide from being naked everywhere as we work with men and women while there are stars or famous people on the news or media or whatever everywhere so its a bit too cruel to demand that they do not have a right to use their minds while I have a right to wake up the people to what they had done to me without knowing it so that they may more easily rekindle what they have with their lover or perhaps find something better by asking for a "line-up" I will be making for the single people or whatever?
So Kurt comes to me in my sleep like Mr. T does as he was checking the clubs and trying to stop people from being postal due to not knowing the origins of thought along with the timing of gardening or the act of eating food being so important... its important in my mind to wake up his audience (Kurt's) to save him from the false thoughts coming from them as if they were all caterpillars from 'Alice in Wonderland' gathering false "mushroom clouds of collected human thought" perhaps going back in time to some degree giving him a worse experience from his wife cheating on him or trying to kill him or all of the other things going around in the minds of what could be too many people totally confused or on the wrong path while there is also the "basketball diary" heads of people thinking that maybe he was doing all sorts of things that never really happened or who knows but when there is a man in a dress smashing guitars "asking them" to stay away maybe someone will get a clue? Who knows how many people saved from what we were doing or how we were responding to what could have shot up another gay club or whatever from the same horror that he could have experience perhaps being the birds, bees, or people synchronized to his thoughts bringing him to places that he may not have ever wanted to share or be a part of IN HIS MIND as a person is capable of doing a lot of things without ever really thinking about it consciously like maybe a boy imagining a girl without guidance regarding self exploration or going through the "truth or dare" found among the neighbors?
Welcome to the Tweeting 20s... where everyone still roaring may catch us if they can?
Breeders? Vant you cuckoo
___ or crossing how do x
Domes are made for countering every negative thought positively... thrice whenever found like PI..
I dropped this somewhere very special.
This song really saves us from what comes from war or illegals capable of bringing back WWII from spreading further as its time to be known for how this synchronicity has been linked to what might be known as 'Bruce Way NE' to get more of the goth folks making carpet crawls for snarky homes outside for their potentially dangerous pets that may need litter boxes built outside instead of closer inside of their homes everywhere immediately with timed education brought and grateful opportunities shown?
I will use this blog to share how this band has synchronized what they had made to save their fans... or get me to never allow another to use or abuse me again like others have.. where she grew up should be marked for potentially having sheep in the past while her parents may have made a mistake that was goat milk or cheese so know how she is the Queen of Darkness out of respect to many of us who weep because we think that she is absolutely BEAUTIFUL!
I had to blame myself for everything until I found the nonhuman influence potentially at work.
I would suggest that in England or where she grew up they mark this location and make babies on the second floor rather than the first one?
Be grateful for the technology and privacy respected along with the McIntoSh technology.
Here in America my prayers went to another Queen of Darkness found in (crossing)ex as somewhere?
As Raistlin I was with another facing the Portal... where another on Twitch awaited to be met?
for Pal-a-dine...
Please stay active if you drink it or be grateful to open sesame seed options!
For a long time I was stuck under the wrong end of the rainbow but no more because the babies need to be saved from being caught under the same spot for too long and sometimes they are grown adults...
While playing a game called Vanguard my guild that was the Banshees was the most active PVP-based one in some ways... where we had the most collective 'fame' that came from killing other people.. our leader who was Siouxsie was a nice crafter that did not kill but would stun them or use other techniques such as changing shapes or into other creatures while the idea of making characters named Sid and Nancy did not end up happening as the ranger Sid actually became Bobbi DaBank who was a healer that she preferred much more and this was before I really knew their story or what had happened.
This meant that what I did was always trying to help save them from some terrible things far away.
Hopefully more people get off of the dairy so that they may smell their own stink or fireworks?
The children are breathing it in... some places more than others.. you taught me that?
Oh.. hi... io? Oi oi
No matter what we do here or how helpful the dreams had for them they may wake up to be tricked by a nonhuman influence once again while led to what might be serving antennas more than people?
Before I go into how Lana Del Rey responded to my living once there is a quick story that I should share regarding what her name actually means to me and how it helps save my country in my head...
Can Ada? I am an American't who would like to know more Mexicant's for the Canadiant's... no need to lie or hide the truth about absolutely ANYTHING thanks to my lucky stars but know the concerns others have as I have always been the one to open up to typically as I have a record of guarding another person's secrets where they are the most shameful found underneath the left side of the rainbow.
My middle name is James but I am no longer bonded with illegals while making excuses for them.
Finding the worst definition of your family name and accepting yourself while helping others not to step in the same puddles is the path to salvation as there are 101+ more definitions to be found!
Around the year 2020 when I began to see things much more clearly than ever before I had revisited my Mother with an injury unable to walk to be 'nursed' back to health in one of the homes that I grew up in and rented half of her place from her that was split and separate from the rest of what was once where my siblings partially raised themselves while she was a fight attendant constantly leaving the country.
Before I moved the birds had told me that they would follow me and be able to find me no matter how much I thought that I could escape and when they did they let me know that I was famous among them. They were about to reveal their secret that they could speak as well as people or keep it private longer all depending on what was going on with me and whether or not I could be trusted with them or return to betraying as a vegan with a cat or a 'loving person' that wants to have them all as pets in cages or someone who maybe falls off the wagon when it came to my diet as they had convinced me to stop eating bird in the place that I had previously came from...
At first I was annoyed at a little red bird coming to my window seemingly angry until I realized that he was trying to ask, "you are not going to be the devil, right?" He guarded the nest of his wife Finchy and I named him Pinchy as I sang songs on my guitar to them outside at night about how beautiful the eyes of the Mother were to the babies when they would first see her. I made a lot of new friends in this location and right away the new babies were learning how to speak like the others that would spy on our televisions and radios during the winter. Ghost the sparrow among others as they wrote many songs on my guitar by letting me know which notes to play by landing on the power-lines and we had developed a method of conducting me when I was on the target bird with the attention that could 'pass the guitar' to a nearby bird by bobbing the head and pointing in that birds location. It was so funny when the bird was not ready and under a lot of pressure without being sure what to do as the others would wait so it would do a sort of 'dance' in place during its turn instead of worrying about composing the song. When I would make the music with the doves they would prefer something much softer but the Finches and other smaller birds likely the more energetic tunes. Ducks soon came by to visit where they were previously never seen before as they would let me know that I was famous and they would watch what we were doing. I felt bad that one of them wanted to meet me so bad that when she came down from the sky she tried to land in the parking lot as if it was a pond or lake of some kind so it did not look like the smoothest landing. She thanked me and had asked me to save them by spreading some crackers in a certain spot before the winter came. When the goose would fly by overhead they have a very protective parental spirit and so its no surprise how the nursey rhymes would show one as motherly. So it was very cute watching them make songs as I started to take on a more strict vegetarian diet as it was my plan to go vegan again during my 'mid-life-crisis' to increase my lifespan as much as possible while being a lot more careful of what belt or sacrifice I would wear beyond that.
My Mother was not wanting to accept what was going on as it was too much pressure while feeling too naked since they would say things such as how they watched us during Christmas while they would call her beautiful while she was outside with me but then start to call her the devil when she would go into the kitchen to cook a bird. She was a bit shocked as to what to do as she was likely experiencing synchronicity responding to us everywhere we went much more than usual so she responded in much the same way that most people do by trying to 'turn it off' and go back to somehow having privacy while only I knew how lucky she was to be going through this from the animals first before it came from the people as that would have surely sent her to the mental hospital as a 'schizophrenic patient' potentially while neglected and perhaps abused or even raped from how ineffective their treatment may be compared to dealing with it through diet and exercise. On the other side of the television they were obviously responding to me and people in the audience of a dating show from the 70s would ask 'what my time period was like' as I would be trying to sleep wishing that the television was turned off and that people would be brave enough to face being naked with me. Of course, they want to run. They had forgotten what like was like without the tractors and food or machines and television or movies so the eye of nature coming from the gardens outside may be one of the mot frightening things to discover but this is mostly true without my help as what other people offered was far from helpful as they were all in denial of what was happening to some degree while having a lot of fun keeping secrets while spying to another degree.
At the end of the street where we had lived someone parked a yellow 'beatle' car and soon every neighbor seemingly had almost a dozen cars visiting as people were heard outside shocked at the birds talking so clearly and introducing themselves but it was not so pleasant and they were calling a neighbor a fag whenever he would smoke while confused as to what it actually meant in other ways but it became clear that they were trying to get them to be disgusting with cock since that is a word for chicken among other things. I made a song about this while recording the birds that can be heard if you turn it up really loud and I started to get into animals whispering with other animals since the neighbor dogs were always wanting to get involved who were very upset that the birds would call them the butt of a cigarette. They would bark out loud, "I cannot take it anymore! Stop calling me those names!! I am not a maggot!!!"
Outside one of the funniest birds was a robin and they typically were the best at speaking compared to the other ones and were the first ones to introduce themselves to me for thanking me for my efforts in working on saving them during a very cold winter where it had dropped below zero temperature. It was in this house that I had realized since everything was seemingly synchronizing to what I was going through as if it was more interesting than everything else people were trying to bring their attention to. This was how I wondered if the person who came up with the character 'Batman' was trying to name my bird since I was stuck for a couple months trying to come up with a good name for him. So keeping it simple like 'Robin' made the most sense as I was working with several monitors surrounding me not yet looking into how those fantasy stories related to what was going on with me. While my Mother was watching Andy Griffith they seemingly let me know in my dreams that they were preparing a gift for me and my friends that would be the 'Shadowrun' fantasy world where people would report to Mr. Johnson for cleaning up.
My poor Mom, bless her heart, might be going crazy still without any help but the television and a bottle for trying to return back to the 'ignorant matrix' or whatever one may want to call it while I was having dreams about her Irish side potentially being related to what could be pirates connecting to Chief O' Brien from Star Trek that used to use the birds as my Mother had bought me the Captain Redbeard Lego Pirate Ship as a child (I had red hair growing up but only found in my beard) and she always fed them while bringing plants and gardens with her no matter where she lived compared to other people but worked constantly and was always going through 'jet lag' that took a handsome toll in regards to time and the amount of extra sleep needed. Both of my parents did not go outside like other people and when we were all together and the closest to being normal it was one Sunflower Drive in Highland, Utah. From her I had learned to eat a bag of sunflower seeds almost everyday as the hours of my parents were not normal. My Dad would work graveyard shift as well while he would get 'high from ideas' when the sun went down as he had a lot of muscles so the day time would be hotter for him compared to other people perhaps? Being a survivor of the Vietnam War seemed to be a large part of it.
People had a tendency to feel ashamed for not being good enough that came from my Mom's work as when she would go to other countries they would be embarrassed from not being a rich famous American star while when coming home they would be embarrassed from not being a knowledgeable traveler fluent in other languages or whatever as she flew for over 50 years serving people while her husband kept moving around the country constantly buying homes and fixing them up to resell them.
This made our country so much richer from the people seeing the beautiful 'Marilyn' and then be welcomed by the artists and performers on the tube or at the theatre when looking into what this country had to offer as my Father's extremely helpful 'ghostly presence' or whatever you may want to call it was a MUCH HEALTHIER AND BETTER PRESENCE to be around compared to what other types or kinds of people could have been living in these places... so in a way they were always blessing people and helping them to make their dreams come true even though my Dad's harsh judgements in his mirror were a bit hard to take on in the heads of other people since they were not into bodybuilding like he was. Sure it is tough love but helpful as from early age children may look ugly at first but the more that they would follow him would be the more that they would find their best angels and learn to sculpt their own 'success' as in the places he had lived also did things such as help time suddenly slow down for children that were in danger about to get hurt in some way I had witnessed many times that he must have done while sleeping in a different time period.
My Mom bought me a puppy while I was healing at her place and this very special dog had a perfect 'bunny' shape on his back while I was teaching him how to design a family crest while trying to remember how my ancestors had done it... so I got him a few different collars with different colors that would represent his 'belt' or animal of choice to follow much like what maybe the Egyptians would do for their cats at one point according to my dreams. So I ordered him a bunch of vegan dog food that was nice quality so that he would be able to make his own choices in regards to what to eat and how to earn it from working out and playing 'dog star' with me that is a game I had designed and plan to sell once I finally get some help from anyone out there watching that has a heart large enough for an agreement of showing other people what happened to me. Very simple it would be to make a lot of money and this could happen any day now while already some people very close to me have died from my not being known more in the public regarding the miracles that were happening to me. So I was explaining to my dog about how we would make drums of the animals we would eat so that they would be sent away and survive to be healthy enough for the best returns when we would meet again while earning forgiveness and creating more of a relationship from respect coming from the hunter that is born eating his own Mother unlike the dinosaurs that became extinct before them. So I had shown my puppy the process in which the food reaches him and makes it to the store so that he would understand the importance of having a better quality of food coming from caring better for them and the one life they had lived. So when he would make his choice I would give him the meat he wanted while dogs heard in the distance started to bark out loud as if they wanted to play 'dog star' with us how they also wanted to be 'vegan' as it did not actually mean being controlled or forced into one way but for us it was following what I am creating for the public called 'Orion's Diet' for learning how to make the safest trades or come across meals in foreign places without having an accident from an allergy among other risks that are most especially found in today's methods of eating meals three times daily using the dollar to simply satisfy an urge that may end up serving what bacterial colonies live in our entrails over the beautiful minds that we have that need to win over what could lead to death, sickness, or extinction.
During this discussion with my puppy that I had named 'Puffeh' after the Greek word that meant 'Brown' . .. so that my least favorite 'color' as a child would be shown more love than every before! I was very shy so typically trying to wear black with one color taking turns on which color this would be so that I would be more likely to blend into the background and not be noticed by others at school or in public because I thought that I was ugly. Luckily, my Dad was extremely judgement and rude regarding the ways in which he judged himself and others so I kept practicing hoping that one day I would be attractive to another and my siblings all did the same thing. My little sisters sure went above and beyond other people in regards to making sure they looked good when someone saw them and hopefully would be distracted by something beautiful found on the body or with artwork enough to distract what could be a very bad or ugly angle for a moment the person was curious and looking at one of us. You can imagine how what was going on in my brain was different when Marina Sirtis was being interviewed by a crowd of Star Trek fans when asked what she thought about Jon (or John?) and she responded that he made her want to work out as if she was referring to my Dad in a funny way.
This type of synchronicity is always found as the rest of others are disturbed from my not getting more direct help so that my ideas and discoveries are acknowledged now sooner rather than later that would inevitably save lives everywhere should they catch up to what I am working on or have in store for saving other people by encouraging them through layers of choices or whatever as my dreams are actually still capable of seeing the light of reality whether it be day or night? Please do not allow jealousy or fear of being naked rob absolutely everything from me or whatever excuse another may come up with just to simply be 'the one' with the closest and best opportunity when honestly it should be there for EVERYONE! Why else would so much be synchronizing to go along with me?? Because what I have to share with the public is much more important than what is found elsewhere creating the neglect that has been there since I was a child needing more help and a stronger community that is more willing to work with individuals and love themselves rather than all be expected to do things a 'certain way' or for the 'greater good' as hostages of kindness or whatever else that may be dangerously capable of killing people?
My dog really liked the vegan dog food and felt like he was living in a life of luxury since I was giving him samples of 'human food' that might bring up a lot more concerns regarding the need to brush his teeth or other dangers but this was supposed to be okay since I was expecting to be discovered and make a lot of money as I was constantly finding out how videos go 'viral' everyday that would make me feel like I was set for life once it happened to me JUST ONCE so I know that it will when others stop coming up with excuses as they are feeling 'threatened' when in reality they have been fully capable of contact me with their concerns this entire time.
While discussing different options for the dog to be brought to him with the origins of the letter 'i' we went over the dangers of eating a snake or crocodile since they may be more likely to be meaner to other people in the American South like an angry Pacman saying, "figure figure figure!!! CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP!!" and then I had come across this Egyptian message seemingly synchronized like everything else to try and bring me more direct assistance faster somehow for saving humanity through the American methods favoring layers of choices and timed education over brute force as the most ominous message coming from the orange circle might be something stronger than gold connecting us as the 'devil' with the animals sharing gravity doing odd things such as encouraging a person to have a longer neck because of living where the giraffe had previously lived among other things? White people drank milk and a lot of it for a very long time while they are all related to blacks that might show more concern about what they could be capable of doing more than the 'white' side of our genetic family trees.
Lana Del Taco!
Whenever I come across artwork from other people it feels like being possessed by them to some degree as they are in a confessional state while trying to win my favor and get more attention so it might feel like being a composer of the song partially since the timing of my thoughts give me the experience of everything responding to what had last entered my brain... it feels like something out of my control but capable of being guided by my preferences or logic where I see how something would be felt more when fit a certain way?
When I first heard Lana Del Rey I thought that she was 'shaping her music towards me' since from my experience it was responding to every thought that I had in a miraculously impossible "how did you know what I was thinking about?" sort of way that I have grown to become used to experiencing whenever I come across the work other people have done but since this was coming from a woman there is a different type of 'pull' that may potentially bring on one of the most romantic experiences a person may possibly have because it is one of the most intimate since its capable of reaching me more than merely a touch could do. This is something that I want to be able to do for other people as a deep-stare musician and I have had a certain way of programming my songs so that it brings on more feeling from how it changes from what comes from the right speaker that goes into the left one or vice versa. Lana Del Rey is engaged to be married to someone so although her songs from my experience are pulling me to her we have never been sexually active while sleep or anything along those lines as far as I know. She has come as a musical partner to make music with me and I will be able to hear new songs she has never released before. On her end should she would have been waking up feeling very motivated to make new music possibly with my unique "Spanish guitar" style or "deep stare" (extreme stereo) technique. Whenever I listen to her music and will have the experience that is somewhat like communicating the birds will get excited because of her being a female so it can feel like there is something more happening but this same magic occurs with male artists as well. I have a history of doing things such as sharing a bed with a female while being attracted to each other without ever becoming sexually involved.
My sister was listening to her song "Born to Die" every day as part of her meditation subliminal message routine and I was temporarily staying in her guest room proving on camera in private or unlisted videos that other people were always responding to me by using a random number generator and asking for various things to appear on the other side of a picture or video as they are capable of answering questions that I would have for them but when I do this it feels as though they are possessing my body to some margin and I am merely going along with what they want me to do that I have learned can put some trust into them which may not be a good idea but I have found that if I do not do this they will be potentially upset with me in regards to my sharing too much or doing the wrong thing on my end so it is helpful regarding knowing what to share... for example, right now I am allowing her to 'tell me what to do' as if I am dreaming while awake and I am capable of closing my eyes and allow my brain to seemingly let her 'fill in the gaps' and this is not hard for me to prove being real using science but I am not doing this for her now to be more respectful to her privacy. A lot of people have already witnessed this and it is part of the reason that I have been called 'the Seer' by other famous artists. Its always a very spiritual experience to become a part of and a lot more exciting when the person is still alive or attractive while being the opposite sex if single and available but in this case if the synchronization is due to an echo of us coming from the future this is due to our both being musicians and perhaps working together some day? Musicians and artists everywhere are synchronizing themselves so that I will contact them and let them know about what it is that they want from me. In her case it would be my dreams of the future and what I am working on since this new "deep stare" sound is extremely addictive and beautiful while it is not found on the radio or anywhere else yet! It's my sixteen scented celebration, how fun it is working with the birds or animal whispering, and most especially maybe being able to save the lives of her listeners more effectively by a more futuristic way of doing songs with something like a "deep spell cover song" being extremely common and often done. She will let me know that with her speaking Spanish and working with me tomorrow in spreading this knowledge people would be saved everywhere all over the world as we have been tricked by a nonhuman influence convincing us not to believe in ourselves or not to do more when it comes to keeping the negative in the past or stopping us when it comes to saving someone crying for help now.
Ether way, it would be good for her so that she could discover the deep-stare sound and technique as well as the Tweeting 20s along with the sixteen scented celebration that I am working on... when I start to work on trying to contact her as a priest or something like that for helping her have the best wedding ceremony she tries to get me to stop setting her up with another and to try and go for it myself!
When I listened to her song for the first time and laughed at the lyrics regarding how 'he likes his girls insane' I could not help but feel like she was singing about me driving them crazy from what I was doing or capable of since no one else out there has ever done what I can do and am doing as far as I know?
The women call themselves vampire women for the most part and I was doing an experiment on the girls found on twitch when I had noticed that they were all seemingly trying to compete for who would get most of my attention while knowing exactly what to say as if we had already met in a dream and they wanted mine to come true along with their being in it with me in the end and longest run...
...so I had developed what was called a 'Felicia Fork Burrito' agreement with the ladies in a dream since they kept arguing and would not agree on anything since none of them were getting a fair chance to be with me so I had agreed to spend one day per person that was responding to me in a way that way that was trying to win me who was not married and for fun while out in the middle of nowhere, Idaho. I made a video called 'Can I get a date in Idawho?" while I was documenting myself dream dating people from various dating websites that turned out being a waste of time almost completely outside of learning a lot more regarding how to connect with them better as it became much easier finding various flaws or whatever from our dream so that I would not waste time in real life trying to work things out with the person.
While in Arizona there was a person that I found online that I had intimate dreams of since childhood somehow and some even while I was with my last girlfriend but I will keep her identity hidden for now as I have the same fears of doing something out of line even though she was responding in a way that was asking me to simply let it out and be honest to let her man know that I caught her 'red handed' or whatever?
I documented every time that I came across a new person online because of the miracles that I was witnessing and how romantic I knew it would be to reach out to them someday and show what they were able to do while asleep to get my attention over the other women... so when I had discovered this particular person I had obeyed her instruction coming from my dreams as I was proving everything to be real by showing how the next thing that I had discovered about her was always matching what I was previously doing as if responding to me and trying to be closer somehow?
One night I woke up somewhat upset because I was having intimate dreams of her while with my last girlfriend that I told her all about while I was suspicious when she told me that the sexiest scene from any movie was with Keanu Reeves when the vampire women came to his bed. When I had looked up her Instagram she posted pictures of a 'tunnel' during those nights that I was dreaming of her and she had a shirt that had shown my girlfriend in a hamburger in some ways since her name was Kat.
This was the time when my favorite band the Legendary Pink Dots wrote that album called 'the Tunnel' that was about our relationship and a little goodbye to a special someone who we had lost... I mention this in another blog.. how on it is found the coded message that reads, "KathZsTryLA" and the copy that came to me I ordered was special and different from the other ones with unique artwork.
So when I had first got together with my last girlfriend who was open to having a woman in bed with us they were coming to me several times each night for a couple weeks or so and I had to meditate to get them off using timed prayers at her red robe to do so... recently, I have discovered from more dream lovers that came to me about what the robes actually mean.. so the red robe is neutral to get everyone off and love myself while the black one is open to more than one while the white one focused everything on just one! They typically will use purple to try and get the other women off of me so that put all of my focus on them. This is because it is the color of water when blood reaches it so its warning our subconscious minds not to allow violet to become violent as purple may be safer and more respectful with the pp still found in it?
I will rewrite this later on and make it better... sorry.. not exactly romantic or whatever but it actually is when a person is able to be touched closer than what flesh may reach in the ways that they do to me?
So I want to be able to do it in return back to them and that was how I came up with the sixteen scented celebration but mostly am trying to find the white but am forced to go along with the black until she is found since the world may appear to be very small from certain points of view as the choices sometimes may seem very limited as they should never actually be that way since there are plenty of people.
Right before I came across Lana Del Taco I was following this other girl as usual who unfortunately informed me she was not single after totally timing everything she was doing to convince me to stop following or showing interest in the other girls... but out of nowhere once I had arrived in Idaho she responded to get off of her!? I was a bit shocked but obeyed. When I say 'obey' I mean in the way that I ask permission whether its okay or not to look at their pictures or THINK about them. I would never allow it to bring me into other more psychotic ways, of course. There are several people awaiting me ready to use this against me at every turn or way that I try in order to cock block me or prevent this truth from being revealed as its actually easily proven using the random number generators how much they actually do synchronize and time their one life to try and be closer to me in mine in the most intimate way possible as its so hard to find a good match and I have never really been with someone where I likely was not responding in this same way to other women that might have been wanting me from the other side of photos or videos. I have worried about sharing them with fears that maybe they would be coming from a distant future or country where the chances of hooking up or finding them would be very slim so I would be not putting everything into the person that I was with for who and why? These are legitimate concerns... most of my 'proof' of people responding to me I took down so that things could be done better for a broader audience as it felt like maybe I was invading their privacy too much even though it was a dating website or twitch open for anyone to see. Of course, something like Twitch typically was not used for finding dates. Its not something that I am interested in doing either. I would most likely find problems or maybe have issues with the people who use it but its still a magical experience and something fun to do while alone that would be so magical to be able to surprise someone with most especially if its coming from my artwork first! So this is what Lana Del Taco seems to want me to do with her and put everything into it so that my best dreams come true with her?
When I came across this picture she was showing me the difference between her head and the other girl who I was mostly interested in and working on making some artwork for to give her the biggest and best WOW experience in a way that has never been done before... hopefully many people will become familiar with doing this in the future as part of my sixteen scented celebration.. but for now its NEVER BEEN DONE so I would be the very first and its one of the most interesting and romantic stories never told!
... so I lived in Idaho when this had happened right after we went to the closest place to shop which was a town called Wallace where I had purchased the framed 'Love On Film' vintage poster showing Gloria Swanson and others from Old Hollywood.. while thinking about everything the funny-shape of Idaho kept coming to mind as one of those gigantic hands one may see at a sports stadium stating something along the lines of, "we are number one!" but what is also interesting to note is that if it was compared to the shape of a gun than the location of Wallace would be found where the 'frame' of a gun is located. While staying with her I was sharing stuff online asking for help in locating missing people while trying to wake people up to the fact that someone out there could be praying to be saved when the animals were bringing people looking at pictures of Jesus Christ to me since he is normally depicted in artwork everywhere as being loved by them and drawing them near which I do but only to send them away!?
While moving out of state and going for a long drive I listened to her music for the first time outside of the song 'Born to Die' that my little sister was continuously playing and saw that she was scheduled to tour starting in the location closest to me at the time so it was tempting to drop everything that I was doing to go and see her perform at that show. Since then I have had several dreams of her and while listening to her music the synchronicity was an absolute miracle to witness as every thing she sung about was perfectly timed to what I was driving by such as mentioning the word 'baby' in a song at the same time that a sign of a baby was seen on the side of the road that I was passing by... or maybe that was the other band that I listened to on the same drive 'Her and Him' which was building up to listen to Lana Del Taco once I arrived closer to where the echo was more helpful to people that I had previously knew who moved to those locations in the past for the best chances of help reaching them?
The tour for Did You Know That There's a Tunnel Under Ocean Blvd made me wonder if she had already known about me and was participating in helping me out but its more likely that its a miracle?
This is because of what the tunnel has become in the dream world among the 'vampire lovers' as it leads to the bed of my previous lover for them to levitate to me but it basically has meant the most intimate part of a female and I am trying to find one to wear the white robes with as I feel forced to wear the black ones as I mediate with the red ones to get them off of me somehow for giving the person that I am with a fair chance but of course I want to find the largest echo that would be having children for me.
Under the Ocean?
This means a lot of things as every wrong answer is merely incomplete would be more accurate once you discover how our subconscious minds actually work since we are far from being the most intelligent species found on our planet among whales or other creatures much larger than us.
She is drinking too much would be one of them?
Or maybe it is simply asking someone to get in and test the waters?
As much as an artist would like it to be true that it means only what they say that it means there is always a lot more to the 'picture' as it will inevitably mean many other things as time goes on and the artwork left behind becomes a relic and part of something historical showing human hosts in the past...
Either way they are only dreams and since I do not come to conclusions there is no harm in wondering and documenting what I witness has been interesting for science to better understand origins of thought.
One of my dreams has been to give another person the same experience that she or others have given me and with the deep-stare sound I program it in a way that typically things are heard from the right ear delayed into the left ear for the subliminal programming that I am leaving but I reverse it for giving someone the feeling that I am not going anywhere or going to leave which her tattoos match very well.
So there are two locations during her tour going on now that have a 'double' date.
9.13 & 9.14 Franklin, Tennessee & 10.30 & 11.1 Columbia, Maryland ("All Things Go" Festival)
So why are these dates significant to me and what would they mean or who planned such a thing?
9.13 & 9.14 Franklin, Tennessee
Something you should know about Tennessee... when a person looks on the map near this location they may automatically think 'SUPERMAN' since the names Kent, Loise, and Clark are seen all over.. and a funny way to break down that name would be "Ten NES see" why?
Ten would be taking a leap of faith usually... are you one or zero?
NES are the initials for the Nintendo Entertainment System that every child of the 80s our age had...
See?
Well, on the Nintendo Entertainment System it shows how Superman jumps ridiculously higher than everyone else and I had noticed this while living in a house where a family was raised and likely played basketball in the driveway outside since it was still in good condition when I came across this. This is always significant perhaps to some degree as I am timing what I do to be more helpful to other human beings sharing gravity who lived in different time periods... although it always feels like sure there might be a small influence had from previous owners or residents of my location it is never forced onto me but merely capable of bringing me to a line so whether to cross it or not would still be up to me?
Frank is a name that appears in some of the artwork found in the Swans where the red plane has the hand guiding it to its destination? The name Frank has typically meant something like "firing rank" or "aiming rank" would be more accurate as the sickness found in the definitions of things we come across are fixed by examining further into what may be found between the lines as where there is something negative it becomes something positive by simply looking further into the origins where the people found may have thought of everyone here as being ill so some degree? Its like the number 18 becoming the initials for 'Adolf Hitler' people may typically get stuck upon while a nonhuman influence tries to take advantage of the situation but in the minds of the people they may be merely trying to eliminate the worst possibilities in much the same way that things are remembered in history as the most negative things that had happened since bad news typically spreads faster to ensure our survival. There is a sort of sickness that may come from aligning things for following only a certain trail while pushing your own language and views over what may be found elsewhere as there is something present trying not to be detected with anyone doing this that might be trying to get people to trust in themselves more so that they may be more likely to follow the thoughts that come to them later when it goes completely against everything good for the human host?
What is even more special about these names though would be WHO these people were in my memory.
The first one was a neighbor from New York City who was a very disturbed child that was very dark and really taught the other kids some very bad things likely coming from what might have been found in that city far away and while he was Jewish I would never categorize him as such as individuals should be judged as that instead of bringing down other people with them as if we should all have barcodes placed upon us or something along those lines? So this kid and his little sisters took part in doing so many terribly mean things to us such as stealing our things, convincing us to do bad things to other people, a knife was thrown that scarred my youngest sister in the face, and other incidents where as an adult I had wondered if this child was trying to kill me by talking me into doing very dangerous things as if maybe hoping that I would get hurt while doing them?
The second one was a SLC Punk 'skinhead' that likely would have beat me up if he came across me on the streets looking the way that I did but luckily women or girls were always around to hold them back or take away their desire to do this or more likely he did not want to lose favor with someone in my family. I had spent some time at their place with them seeing things such as pipes or other weapons while wearing makeup and lucky for me no one messed me up like they did to my little sister's boyfriend sending him to the hospital when he took a stand against this kid named Frank. In a nightmare that I had as a child my older brother put our youngest sister into a hot air balloon and it went on an unpredictable route where we went after it and as it went over a school she fell out and we heard a huge 'THUMP' on the roof of one of the small external miniature classroom buildings and then on the floor was a bloody body of someone difficult to identify my older brother was looking down upon as if it was his fault. I woke up sobbing uncontrollably and was likely only around seven years old or so while my Mother woke up and held me for awhile on the stairs where a hole was located that most likely belonged to what should be a rat more than a mouse? After my parents had divorced my older brother had gone to live with my Dad in Los Angeles but before this my Mom had seemingly 'lost it' and chased him like a madwoman in the mountains with her car right behind him almost hitting him while shouting out of the window, "I believe in you!" that seemingly was to prefer him for living in a nonwhite neighborhood where he was picked on by others who would gang up on him with people who were much older jumping out of the shadows unexpectedly at times or whatever. On his first day he tried to answer a question by the teacher that he got wrong and the other kids threw things at him calling him a 'stupid white boy' and another kid took his jacket away which he took back later but was jumped for it by several people after school. In this part of California he was grateful to find anyone white who would be there to make it much less likely he would run into trouble. During recess who was known as 'big Momma' would call her 'children' and then point at a white kid that they would chase or something along those lines. One day they had pointed at him and he run away off of the school property having to jump several fences to get away. Naturally, he befriended other white kids and accepted help where it came so made some friends that might be considered the 'skinhead punk' kind? Someone into maybe into the band Rancid trying to find other white kids to be safer against the odds? Big difference between that and what was found in SLC where what may have been potentially 'buffalo ghosts' people were dangerously getting linked to instead of the usual 'territorial seal ghosts' that likely lived on the California beaches before the men killed them all? Our younger sister with the blonde hair (we all have very blue eyes) was potentially very abusive to the youngest one so that she would not 'follow her' in any way and some of this not only comes from being disturbed from the minds of men in the future that wanted to 'have sex with the both of them?' but also might be to prevent her from following what might have been found in the 'goth' or SLC punk scene to help her get 'revenge' for the abusive stuff that our Jewish neighbors had done to us? This kid named Frank would regularly 'patrol' the streets looking for victims so in my memory there was a sort of Frank vs Frank war? The origins of the name Frank would be something more like "aiming heading caring lifting handing" so hopefully they are educated with timing so that the sea shell is honored more than the what? The fallen star fragment preferred over the compass that goes for a battle ship used for what?
The last time that I had met a Frank was a nice Arabic fellow in the goth scene that called himself a Muslim but much like Christianity they seem to have lost a lot of knowledge or maybe better put would be a lot lost in translation that might happen more often when a teacher insists that there are certain answers to every given test in order to get 100% as too many things were kept from the general public for whatever reason but most likely to time educate them to heal or prevent what might be the malicious knowledge found in the religious texts spreading or found in the wrong hands with fears that would no longer be real today since any computer or phone with access to the internet is just as deadly or dangerous as a person may simply look up alchemy anywhere easily. During more ancient times there would be more serious concerns about spreading the knowledge of what happened in books such as the Genesis since digging into the details of such a story allows a person to be able to make the same threats to others that Moses had made to the pharaohs for whatever reason that they want? Reasons such as this makes sense as to why so much was not understood coming from the bible and the Christians were allowed to be so far off yesterday compared to what was actually written or what had actually happened. It would not have been a good book if people were able to read how to kill people whenever they come across it in so many newer ways they were previously unaware of?
...Franklin...
The letter 'L' typically has the Egyptian origins meaning 'working' so together its "Frank working in?"
The Last Day of September is part of the Sixteen Scented Celebration that I had come up with...
10.30 & 11.1 Columbia, Maryland ("All Things Go" Festival)
What is funny about this place and date being a 'double' is that while I was making my discoveries and sharing them with other people online I looked up remote viewing to find my own name listed as one of the locations for the 'stargate project' the CIA released back in 1995 regarding something based out of Fort Meade, Maryland and I found that a funny coincidence since I was designing my sixteen scented celebration that I came up with for helping people have the best experiences possible and find their largest echo whoever he or she may be in their future bringing people back to more ancient wedding traditions although it may be simply someone important like a friend or partner of another kind...
I had a dream of her coming to me and playing a song that I am going to make where she was singing something while trying to make some music with me so we went over ideas back and forth with her as some very interesting things came up for what could be done in the future potentially should we ever work together or if she were to go forth with what she was wanting to do in this dream...
So... do you want to take a cruise in a Ford Del Rey Sedan?
Clever how the word 'Turner' is replaced by the Ford Del Rey...
So the words 'Del Rey' in Spanish would be something like "from the King"?
...and hilarious that she called herself Lana Del RAY during the year 2010 since it would suggest taking a leap of faith to go up against the worst 'enemy' that the ghostbuster Ray may come up with while running from the zoo(L) or eye of nature discovering his deepest and most private memories..
As far as the other character named Rey goes?
Isn't this something from the newer Star Wars movies?
I actually have not seen them yet but I did watch the first one where Han Solo died.
Yes, I have mentioned earlier in this blog how Harrison Ford has been like a dopple-ganger for my Dad in the same way that Leonardo Dicaprio was a dopple-ganger for me because of how much more publicity and money he made from me since I was working at the parking lot when the teenagers would go to see the movie 'Titanic' over and over again so that they could scream at me on their way out!
So if my Dad was Darth Vader that should be more like Han Solo before a pacemaker is installed or something along those lines than I would be like Luke Skywalker needed for training Rey and in this case maybe it would be regarding several things but mainly deep-stare or flow music technique?
Rylo Ren killed Han Solo and Harrison Ford had said that he was glad to kill off that character so funny thoughts will cross my mind like my Dad being mean, it would be horrible to be alone like he is, and maybe he is better off drinking coffee and wielding the 'red light saber' for the rest of his life while fully capable of not getting a heart attack until much later since his Mom is in her 90s while he worked out?
I feel bad for his taking on the role for the 'basketball diaries' when I got into hard drugs... sorry?
As far as Del Taco goes I think that I have always preferred Taco Time more because of the crisp bean burritos or Taco Bell since it has the best vegan options for fast food but I usually call it Taco Smell!
The 'joke' that comes from this logo is that it is of a Legendary Blue, Pink, and Brown dot...
The letter 'y' is typically used for 'lining' or for showing the line between good and evil... so it is found here to warn people about the brown direction as it may lead to death more than the others if not careful.. so please practice safe 'whatever it is that you do' and please stay kind to others!
The word 'Rey' if its for King than of course he would be encouraged never to make love with a woman who could bring in anything from that direction but the opposite may be found where the more 'civilized' people are living or working since a coffee enema or whatever is found in our recent past.
Historically, there were likely many methods of 'safe sex practices' to avoid pregnancy... and just because there were rules does not mean that they were never broken anywhere? In regards to the most ancient pagan laws to follow in regards to trade the blue was not seen as penetrating her 'wood' so a virgin sold or married into another tribe would be a lot less likely to spread disease from the exchange.
Where the 'brown' was inevitably tested the results would have eventually shown the spread of disease.
I have absolutely loved the company of gay men as they are so nice but I keep proof of being STD free with me and plan to take tests between every lover that I have from now on.. extremely important to do.
While living in Idaho recently while staying with my little sister who was being sandwiched by the previous owners of her place as well as whoever buys it from her in the future? Timing what they did potentially to get me further away from her so that they could have more of a chance to be with what might comparable as a princess to the more simple people curious about who we were or where we had come from... While there I had made an altar in her guest room where she 'magically' failed at being able to eat meat as it was for holy water and 'crackers' over what could have been found elsewhere... her cat spoke to me and I have recorded her saying out loud while sleeping, "BE NICE TO ME!" (probably dreaming of another cat because it was always timed in response other women seemingly queueing what they were doing on the other side of every picture or video that I would come across to be closer to me for learning more about what could help them further regarding their own future or whatever else was going on as no one else might be found on the other side of light and sound all over the place who has not stopped planning and working for a better future like I have while designing 'games' 'math formulas' or 'architecture' for solving all of the worlds problems through story telling to the point of causing a deformed ribcage as a child since I was using my mind much more than pretty much everyone else everywhere that I would go for escaping what could be pain or something endangering me from where I had previously been)
Who, me? ("Louder!")
Why? ("Got that?")
Take me to the finish line
Oh, my heart, it breaks every step that I take
But I'm hoping at the gates, they'll tell me that you're mine
Walking through the city streets, is it by mistake or design?
I feel so alone on a Friday night
Can you make it feel like home, if I tell you you're mine?
It's like I told you, honey ("Louder!")
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don't know why
Keep making me laugh, let's go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane ("Louder!", "Alright!")
Choose your last words, this is the last time
'Cause you and I, we were born to die
I can see that once I was blind
I was so confused as a little child
Tried to take what I could get, scared that I couldn't find
All the answers I need ("Louder!")
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don't know why
Keep making me laugh, let's go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane ("Louder!", "Alright")
Choose your last words, this is the last time
'Cause you and I, we were born to die ("Louder!", "Got that")
We were born to die ("Louder!", "Alright")
Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don't know why
Keep making me laugh, let's go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane ("Louder!", "Alright")
So choose your last words, this is the last time
'Cause you and I, we were born to die
("Louder!")
We were born to die
("Got that?")
("Louder!")
("Got that?")
("Louder!")
("Got that?")
("Louder!")
("Got that?")
("Louder!")
Who, me? ("Louder!")
Why? ("Not that?")
Tease me to the finish line
Oh, my heart, it heals with every step that I will take
But I'm hoping at the gates, they'll tell me that you're out
Dancing through the city streets, is it a plan of no sign?
I won't feel alone every single night
Will you make it feel like home, if I tell you you're yours?
It's like I told you, money ("Louder!")
Sometimes love was not enough and the road gets tough
And yes we will know why
Keep making me laugh, let's go for a hike
The road is long, we carry on
Easy to have fun during the meanest time
Let me miss you soft in the pouring rain
You like your girls with a brain ("Louder!", "Alright!")
Choose your next words, this is not the last time
'Cause you and I, we were born to survive
I can see that once I was shy
I was so confused as a little child
Tried to take what I could get, scared that I couldn't find
All the answers I need ("Louder!")
Sometimes love is not enough and the gym gets buff
They will know why
Keep making us laugh, let's go for a climb
The road isn't long, we may not carry on
Try to have fun in a turn or a run in the meantime
Let sweat kiss you hard without any rain
You like the sane in our brain ("Louder!", "Alright")
Will there be first words, is this the last time
'Cause you and I, were we born to give birth ("Louder!", "Got that")
We were born to a life ("Louder!", "Alright")
Come and take a hug in the comfy side
Let him kiss you hard before snoring a gain?
You like your girls in vein
Sometimes sex is not enough and the road gets tough
You will know why?
The road is long, we may carry on
Know to have fun in the meanest time
Let him kiss you hard in the pouring rain
Do you like your robots with a brain ("Louder!", "Alright")
Don't choose your last words, this not is the last time
'Cause that nonhuman robot was born to die
("Louder!")
We were born to sigh
("Got that?")
("Louder!")
("Got that?")
("Louder!")
("Got that?")
("Louder!")
("Got that?")
("Louder!")
Before I go into how Lana Del Rey responded to my living once there is a quick story that I should share regarding what her name actually means to me and how it helps save my country in my head...
Can Ada? I am an American't who would like to know more Mexicant's for the Canadiant's... no need to lie or hide the truth about absolutely ANYTHING thanks to my lucky stars but know the concerns others have as I have always been the one to open up to typically as I have a record of guarding another person's secrets where they are the most shameful found underneath the left side of the rainbow.
My middle name is James but I am no longer bonded with illegals while making excuses for them.
Finding the worst definition of your family name and accepting yourself while helping others not to step in the same puddles is the path to salvation as there are 101+ more definitions to be found!
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Around the year 2020 when I began to see things much more clearly than ever before I had revisited my Mother with an injury unable to walk to be 'nursed' back to health in one of the homes that I grew up in and rented half of her place from her that was split and separate from the rest of what was once where my siblings partially raised themselves while she was a fight attendant constantly leaving the country.
Before I moved the birds had told me that they would follow me and be able to find me no matter how much I thought that I could escape and when they did they let me know that I was famous among them. They were about to reveal their secret that they could speak as well as people or keep it private longer all depending on what was going on with me and whether or not I could be trusted with them or return to betraying as a vegan with a cat or a 'loving person' that wants to have them all as pets in cages or someone who maybe falls off the wagon when it came to my diet as they had convinced me to stop eating bird in the place that I had previously came from...
At first I was annoyed at a little red bird coming to my window seemingly angry until I realized that he was trying to ask, "you are not going to be the devil, right?" He guarded the nest of his wife Finchy and I named him Pinchy as I sang songs on my guitar to them outside at night about how beautiful the eyes of the Mother were to the babies when they would first see her. I made a lot of new friends in this location and right away the new babies were learning how to speak like the others that would spy on our televisions and radios during the winter. Ghost the sparrow among others as they wrote many songs on my guitar by letting me know which notes to play by landing on the power-lines and we had developed a method of conducting me when I was on the target bird with the attention that could 'pass the guitar' to a nearby bird by bobbing the head and pointing in that birds location. It was so funny when the bird was not ready and under a lot of pressure without being sure what to do as the others would wait so it would do a sort of 'dance' in place during its turn instead of worrying about composing the song. When I would make the music with the doves they would prefer something much softer but the Finches and other smaller birds likely the more energetic tunes. Ducks soon came by to visit where they were previously never seen before as they would let me know that I was famous and they would watch what we were doing. I felt bad that one of them wanted to meet me so bad that when she came down from the sky she tried to land in the parking lot as if it was a pond or lake of some kind so it did not look like the smoothest landing. She thanked me and had asked me to save them by spreading some crackers in a certain spot before the winter came. When the goose would fly by overhead they have a very protective parental spirit and so its no surprise how the nursey rhymes would show one as motherly. So it was very cute watching them make songs as I started to take on a more strict vegetarian diet as it was my plan to go vegan again during my 'mid-life-crisis' to increase my lifespan as much as possible while being a lot more careful of what belt or sacrifice I would wear beyond that.
My Mother was not wanting to accept what was going on as it was too much pressure while feeling too naked since they would say things such as how they watched us during Christmas while they would call her beautiful while she was outside with me but then start to call her the devil when she would go into the kitchen to cook a bird. She was a bit shocked as to what to do as she was likely experiencing synchronicity responding to us everywhere we went much more than usual so she responded in much the same way that most people do by trying to 'turn it off' and go back to somehow having privacy while only I knew how lucky she was to be going through this from the animals first before it came from the people as that would have surely sent her to the mental hospital as a 'schizophrenic patient' potentially while neglected and perhaps abused or even raped from how ineffective their treatment may be compared to dealing with it through diet and exercise. On the other side of the television they were obviously responding to me and people in the audience of a dating show from the 70s would ask 'what my time period was like' as I would be trying to sleep wishing that the television was turned off and that people would be brave enough to face being naked with me. Of course, they want to run. They had forgotten what like was like without the tractors and food or machines and television or movies so the eye of nature coming from the gardens outside may be one of the mot frightening things to discover but this is mostly true without my help as what other people offered was far from helpful as they were all in denial of what was happening to some degree while having a lot of fun keeping secrets while spying to another degree.
At the end of the street where we had lived someone parked a yellow 'beatle' car and soon every neighbor seemingly had almost a dozen cars visiting as people were heard outside shocked at the birds talking so clearly and introducing themselves but it was not so pleasant and they were calling a neighbor a fag whenever he would smoke while confused as to what it actually meant in other ways but it became clear that they were trying to get them to be disgusting with cock since that is a word for chicken among other things. I made a song about this while recording the birds that can be heard if you turn it up really loud and I started to get into animals whispering with other animals since the neighbor dogs were always wanting to get involved who were very upset that the birds would call them the butt of a cigarette. They would bark out loud, "I cannot take it anymore! Stop calling me those names!! I am not a maggot!!!"
Outside one of the funniest birds was a robin and they typically were the best at speaking compared to the other ones and were the first ones to introduce themselves to me for thanking me for my efforts in working on saving them during a very cold winter where it had dropped below zero temperature. It was in this house that I had realized since everything was seemingly synchronizing to what I was going through as if it was more interesting than everything else people were trying to bring their attention to. This was how I wondered if the person who came up with the character 'Batman' was trying to name my bird since I was stuck for a couple months trying to come up with a good name for him. So keeping it simple like 'Robin' made the most sense as I was working with several monitors surrounding me not yet looking into how those fantasy stories related to what was going on with me. While my Mother was watching Andy Griffith they seemingly let me know in my dreams that they were preparing a gift for me and my friends that would be the 'Shadowrun' fantasy world where people would report to Mr. Johnson for cleaning up.
My poor Mom, bless her heart, might be going crazy still without any help but the television and a bottle for trying to return back to the 'ignorant matrix' or whatever one may want to call it while I was having dreams about her Irish side potentially being related to what could be pirates connecting to Chief O' Brien from Star Trek that used to use the birds as my Mother had bought me the Captain Redbeard Lego Pirate Ship as a child (I had red hair growing up but only found in my beard) and she always fed them while bringing plants and gardens with her no matter where she lived compared to other people but worked constantly and was always going through 'jet lag' that took a handsome toll in regards to time and the amount of extra sleep needed. Both of my parents did not go outside like other people and when we were all together and the closest to being normal it was one Sunflower Drive in Highland, Utah. From her I had learned to eat a bag of sunflower seeds almost everyday as the hours of my parents were not normal. My Dad would work graveyard shift as well while he would get 'high from ideas' when the sun went down as he had a lot of muscles so the day time would be hotter for him compared to other people perhaps? Being a survivor of the Vietnam War seemed to be a large part of it.
People had a tendency to feel ashamed for not being good enough that came from my Mom's work as when she would go to other countries they would be embarrassed from not being a rich famous American star while when coming home they would be embarrassed from not being a knowledgeable traveler fluent in other languages or whatever as she flew for over 50 years serving people while her husband kept moving around the country constantly buying homes and fixing them up to resell them.
This made our country so much richer from the people seeing the beautiful 'Marilyn' and then be welcomed by the artists and performers on the tube or at the theatre when looking into what this country had to offer as my Father's extremely helpful 'ghostly presence' or whatever you may want to call it was a MUCH HEALTHIER AND BETTER PRESENCE to be around compared to what other types or kinds of people could have been living in these places... so in a way they were always blessing people and helping them to make their dreams come true even though my Dad's harsh judgements in his mirror were a bit hard to take on in the heads of other people since they were not into bodybuilding like he was. Sure it is tough love but helpful as from early age children may look ugly at first but the more that they would follow him would be the more that they would find their best angels and learn to sculpt their own 'success' as in the places he had lived also did things such as help time suddenly slow down for children that were in danger about to get hurt in some way I had witnessed many times that he must have done while sleeping in a different time period.
My Mom bought me a puppy while I was healing at her place and this very special dog had a perfect 'bunny' shape on his back while I was teaching him how to design a family crest while trying to remember how my ancestors had done it... so I got him a few different collars with different colors that would represent his 'belt' or animal of choice to follow much like what maybe the Egyptians would do for their cats at one point according to my dreams. So I ordered him a bunch of vegan dog food that was nice quality so that he would be able to make his own choices in regards to what to eat and how to earn it from working out and playing 'dog star' with me that is a game I had designed and plan to sell once I finally get some help from anyone out there watching that has a heart large enough for an agreement of showing other people what happened to me. Very simple it would be to make a lot of money and this could happen any day now while already some people very close to me have died from my not being known more in the public regarding the miracles that were happening to me. So I was explaining to my dog about how we would make drums of the animals we would eat so that they would be sent away and survive to be healthy enough for the best returns when we would meet again while earning forgiveness and creating more of a relationship from respect coming from the hunter that is born eating his own Mother unlike the dinosaurs that became extinct before them. So I had shown my puppy the process in which the food reaches him and makes it to the store so that he would understand the importance of having a better quality of food coming from caring better for them and the one life they had lived. So when he would make his choice I would give him the meat he wanted while dogs heard in the distance started to bark out loud as if they wanted to play 'dog star' with us how they also wanted to be 'vegan' as it did not actually mean being controlled or forced into one way but for us it was following what I am creating for the public called 'Orion's Diet' for learning how to make the safest trades or come across meals in foreign places without having an accident from an allergy among other risks that are most especially found in today's methods of eating meals three times daily using the dollar to simply satisfy an urge that may end up serving what bacterial colonies live in our entrails over the beautiful minds that we have that need to win over what could lead to death, sickness, or extinction.
During this discussion with my puppy that I had named 'Puffeh' after the Greek word that meant 'Brown' . .. so that my least favorite 'color' as a child would be shown more love than every before! I was very shy so typically trying to wear black with one color taking turns on which color this would be so that I would be more likely to blend into the background and not be noticed by others at school or in public because I thought that I was ugly. Luckily, my Dad was extremely judgement and rude regarding the ways in which he judged himself and others so I kept practicing hoping that one day I would be attractive to another and my siblings all did the same thing. My little sisters sure went above and beyond other people in regards to making sure they looked good when someone saw them and hopefully would be distracted by something beautiful found on the body or with artwork enough to distract what could be a very bad or ugly angle for a moment the person was curious and looking at one of us. You can imagine how what was going on in my brain was different when Marina Sirtis was being interviewed by a crowd of Star Trek fans when asked what she thought about Jon (or John?) and she responded that he made her want to work out as if she was referring to my Dad in a funny way.
This type of synchronicity is always found as the rest of others are disturbed from my not getting more direct help so that my ideas and discoveries are acknowledged now sooner rather than later that would inevitably save lives everywhere should they catch up to what I am working on or have in store for saving other people by encouraging them through layers of choices or whatever as my dreams are actually still capable of seeing the light of reality whether it be day or night? Please do not allow jealousy or fear of being naked rob absolutely everything from me or whatever excuse another may come up with just to simply be 'the one' with the closest and best opportunity when honestly it should be there for EVERYONE! Why else would so much be synchronizing to go along with me?? Because what I have to share with the public is much more important than what is found elsewhere creating the neglect that has been there since I was a child needing more help and a stronger community that is more willing to work with individuals and love themselves rather than all be expected to do things a 'certain way' or for the 'greater good' as hostages of kindness or whatever else that may be dangerously capable of killing people?
My dog really liked the vegan dog food and felt like he was living in a life of luxury since I was giving him samples of 'human food' that might bring up a lot more concerns regarding the need to brush his teeth or other dangers but this was supposed to be okay since I was expecting to be discovered and make a lot of money as I was constantly finding out how videos go 'viral' everyday that would make me feel like I was set for life once it happened to me JUST ONCE so I know that it will when others stop coming up with excuses as they are feeling 'threatened' when in reality they have been fully capable of contact me with their concerns this entire time.
While discussing different options for the dog to be brought to him with the origins of the letter 'i' we went over the dangers of eating a snake or crocodile since they may be more likely to be meaner to other people in the American South like an angry Pacman saying, "figure figure figure!!! CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP!!" and then I had come across this Egyptian message seemingly synchronized like everything else to try and bring me more direct assistance faster somehow for saving humanity through the American methods favoring layers of choices and timed education over brute force as the most ominous message coming from the orange circle might be something stronger than gold connecting us as the 'devil' with the animals sharing gravity doing odd things such as encouraging a person to have a longer neck because of living where the giraffe had previously lived among other things? White people drank milk and a lot of it for a very long time while they are all related to blacks that might show more concern about what they could be capable of doing more than the 'white' side of our genetic family trees.
Lana Del Taco!
Whenever I come across artwork from other people it feels like being possessed by them to some degree as they are in a confessional state while trying to win my favor and get more attention so it might feel like being a composer of the song partially since the timing of my thoughts give me the experience of everything responding to what had last entered my brain... it feels like something out of my control but capable of being guided by my preferences or logic where I see how something would be felt more when fit a certain way?
My sister was listening to her song "Born to Die" every day as part of her meditation subliminal message routine and I was temporarily staying in her guest room proving on camera in private or unlisted videos that other people were always responding to me by using a random number generator and asking for various things to appear on the other side of a picture or video as they are capable of answering questions that I would have for them but when I do this it feels as though they are possessing my body to some margin and I am merely going along with what they want me to do that I have learned can put some trust into them which may not be a good idea but I have found that if I do not do this they will be potentially upset with me in regards to my sharing too much or doing the wrong thing on my end so it is helpful regarding knowing what to share... for example, right now I am allowing her to 'tell me what to do' as if I am dreaming while awake and I am capable of closing my eyes and allow my brain to seemingly let her 'fill in the gaps' and this is not hard for me to prove being real using science but I am not doing this for her now to be more respectful to her privacy. A lot of people have already witnessed this and it is part of the reason that I have been called 'the Seer' by other famous artists. Its always a very spiritual experience to become a part of and a lot more exciting when the person is still alive or attractive while being the opposite sex if single and available but in this case if the synchronization is due to an echo of us coming from the future this is due to our both being musicians and perhaps working together some day? Musicians and artists everywhere are synchronizing themselves so that I will contact them and let them know about what it is that they want from me. In her case it would be my dreams of the future and what I am working on since this new "deep stare" sound is extremely addictive and beautiful while it is not found on the radio or anywhere else yet! It's my sixteen scented celebration, how fun it is working with the birds or animal whispering, and most especially maybe being able to save the lives of her listeners more effectively by a more futuristic way of doing songs with something like a "deep spell cover song" being extremely common and often done. She will let me know that with her speaking Spanish and working with me tomorrow in spreading this knowledge people would be saved everywhere all over the world as we have been tricked by a nonhuman influence convincing us not to believe in ourselves or not to do more when it comes to keeping the negative in the past or stopping us when it comes to saving someone crying for help now.
Ether way, it would be good for her so that she could discover the deep-stare sound and technique as well as the Tweeting 20s along with the sixteen scented celebration that I am working on... when I start to work on trying to contact her as a priest or something like that for helping her have the best wedding ceremony she tries to get me to stop setting her up with another and to try and go for it myself!
When I listened to her song for the first time and laughed at the lyrics regarding how 'he likes his girls insane' I could not help but feel like she was singing about me driving them crazy from what I was doing or capable of since no one else out there has ever done what I can do and am doing as far as I know?
The women call themselves vampire women for the most part and I was doing an experiment on the girls found on twitch when I had noticed that they were all seemingly trying to compete for who would get most of my attention while knowing exactly what to say as if we had already met in a dream and they wanted mine to come true along with their being in it with me in the end and longest run...
...so I had developed what was called a 'Felicia Fork Burrito' agreement with the ladies in a dream since they kept arguing and would not agree on anything since none of them were getting a fair chance to be with me so I had agreed to spend one day per person that was responding to me in a way that way that was trying to win me who was not married and for fun while out in the middle of nowhere, Idaho. I made a video called 'Can I get a date in Idawho?" while I was documenting myself dream dating people from various dating websites that turned out being a waste of time almost completely outside of learning a lot more regarding how to connect with them better as it became much easier finding various flaws or whatever from our dream so that I would not waste time in real life trying to work things out with the person.
While in Arizona there was a person that I found online that I had intimate dreams of since childhood somehow and some even while I was with my last girlfriend but I will keep her identity hidden for now as I have the same fears of doing something out of line even though she was responding in a way that was asking me to simply let it out and be honest to let her man know that I caught her 'red handed' or whatever?
I documented every time that I came across a new person online because of the miracles that I was witnessing and how romantic I knew it would be to reach out to them someday and show what they were able to do while asleep to get my attention over the other women... so when I had discovered this particular person I had obeyed her instruction coming from my dreams as I was proving everything to be real by showing how the next thing that I had discovered about her was always matching what I was previously doing as if responding to me and trying to be closer somehow?
One night I woke up somewhat upset because I was having intimate dreams of her while with my last girlfriend that I told her all about while I was suspicious when she told me that the sexiest scene from any movie was with Keanu Reeves when the vampire women came to his bed. When I had looked up her Instagram she posted pictures of a 'tunnel' during those nights that I was dreaming of her and she had a shirt that had shown my girlfriend in a hamburger in some ways since her name was Kat.
This was the time when my favorite band the Legendary Pink Dots wrote that album called 'the Tunnel' that was about our relationship and a little goodbye to a special someone who we had lost... I mention this in another blog.. how on it is found the coded message that reads, "KathZsTryLA" and the copy that came to me I ordered was special and different from the other ones with unique artwork.
So when I had first got together with my last girlfriend who was open to having a woman in bed with us they were coming to me several times each night for a couple weeks or so and I had to meditate to get them off using timed prayers at her red robe to do so... recently, I have discovered from more dream lovers that came to me about what the robes actually mean.. so the red robe is neutral to get everyone off and love myself while the black one is open to more than one while the white one focused everything on just one! They typically will use purple to try and get the other women off of me so that put all of my focus on them. This is because it is the color of water when blood reaches it so its warning our subconscious minds not to allow violet to become violent as purple may be safer and more respectful with the pp still found in it?
I will rewrite this later on and make it better... sorry.. not exactly romantic or whatever but it actually is when a person is able to be touched closer than what flesh may reach in the ways that they do to me?
So I want to be able to do it in return back to them and that was how I came up with the sixteen scented celebration but mostly am trying to find the white but am forced to go along with the black until she is found since the world may appear to be very small from certain points of view as the choices sometimes may seem very limited as they should never actually be that way since there are plenty of people.
Right before I came across Lana Del Taco I was following this other girl as usual who unfortunately informed me she was not single after totally timing everything she was doing to convince me to stop following or showing interest in the other girls... but out of nowhere once I had arrived in Idaho she responded to get off of her!? I was a bit shocked but obeyed. When I say 'obey' I mean in the way that I ask permission whether its okay or not to look at their pictures or THINK about them. I would never allow it to bring me into other more psychotic ways, of course. There are several people awaiting me ready to use this against me at every turn or way that I try in order to cock block me or prevent this truth from being revealed as its actually easily proven using the random number generators how much they actually do synchronize and time their one life to try and be closer to me in mine in the most intimate way possible as its so hard to find a good match and I have never really been with someone where I likely was not responding in this same way to other women that might have been wanting me from the other side of photos or videos. I have worried about sharing them with fears that maybe they would be coming from a distant future or country where the chances of hooking up or finding them would be very slim so I would be not putting everything into the person that I was with for who and why? These are legitimate concerns... most of my 'proof' of people responding to me I took down so that things could be done better for a broader audience as it felt like maybe I was invading their privacy too much even though it was a dating website or twitch open for anyone to see. Of course, something like Twitch typically was not used for finding dates. Its not something that I am interested in doing either. I would most likely find problems or maybe have issues with the people who use it but its still a magical experience and something fun to do while alone that would be so magical to be able to surprise someone with most especially if its coming from my artwork first! So this is what Lana Del Taco seems to want me to do with her and put everything into it so that my best dreams come true with her?
... so I lived in Idaho when this had happened right after we went to the closest place to shop which was a town called Wallace where I had purchased the framed 'Love On Film' vintage poster showing Gloria Swanson and others from Old Hollywood.. while thinking about everything the funny-shape of Idaho kept coming to mind as one of those gigantic hands one may see at a sports stadium stating something along the lines of, "we are number one!" but what is also interesting to note is that if it was compared to the shape of a gun than the location of Wallace would be found where the 'frame' of a gun is located. While staying with her I was sharing stuff online asking for help in locating missing people while trying to wake people up to the fact that someone out there could be praying to be saved when the animals were bringing people looking at pictures of Jesus Christ to me since he is normally depicted in artwork everywhere as being loved by them and drawing them near which I do but only to send them away!?
While moving out of state and going for a long drive I listened to her music for the first time outside of the song 'Born to Die' that my little sister was continuously playing and saw that she was scheduled to tour starting in the location closest to me at the time so it was tempting to drop everything that I was doing to go and see her perform at that show. Since then I have had several dreams of her and while listening to her music the synchronicity was an absolute miracle to witness as every thing she sung about was perfectly timed to what I was driving by such as mentioning the word 'baby' in a song at the same time that a sign of a baby was seen on the side of the road that I was passing by... or maybe that was the other band that I listened to on the same drive 'Her and Him' which was building up to listen to Lana Del Taco once I arrived closer to where the echo was more helpful to people that I had previously knew who moved to those locations in the past for the best chances of help reaching them?
The tour for Did You Know That There's a Tunnel Under Ocean Blvd made me wonder if she had already known about me and was participating in helping me out but its more likely that its a miracle?
This is because of what the tunnel has become in the dream world among the 'vampire lovers' as it leads to the bed of my previous lover for them to levitate to me but it basically has meant the most intimate part of a female and I am trying to find one to wear the white robes with as I feel forced to wear the black ones as I mediate with the red ones to get them off of me somehow for giving the person that I am with a fair chance but of course I want to find the largest echo that would be having children for me.
Under the Ocean?
This means a lot of things as every wrong answer is merely incomplete would be more accurate once you discover how our subconscious minds actually work since we are far from being the most intelligent species found on our planet among whales or other creatures much larger than us.
She is drinking too much would be one of them?
Or maybe it is simply asking someone to get in and test the waters?
As much as an artist would like it to be true that it means only what they say that it means there is always a lot more to the 'picture' as it will inevitably mean many other things as time goes on and the artwork left behind becomes a relic and part of something historical showing human hosts in the past...
Either way they are only dreams and since I do not come to conclusions there is no harm in wondering and documenting what I witness has been interesting for science to better understand origins of thought.
One of my dreams has been to give another person the same experience that she or others have given me and with the deep-stare sound I program it in a way that typically things are heard from the right ear delayed into the left ear for the subliminal programming that I am leaving but I reverse it for giving someone the feeling that I am not going anywhere or going to leave which her tattoos match very well.
So there are two locations during her tour going on now that have a 'double' date.
9.13 & 9.14 Franklin, Tennessee & 10.30 & 11.1 Columbia, Maryland ("All Things Go" Festival)
So why are these dates significant to me and what would they mean or who planned such a thing?
9.13 & 9.14 Franklin, Tennessee
Something you should know about Tennessee... when a person looks on the map near this location they may automatically think 'SUPERMAN' since the names Kent, Loise, and Clark are seen all over.. and a funny way to break down that name would be "Ten NES see" why?
Ten would be taking a leap of faith usually... are you one or zero?
NES are the initials for the Nintendo Entertainment System that every child of the 80s our age had...
See?
Well, on the Nintendo Entertainment System it shows how Superman jumps ridiculously higher than everyone else and I had noticed this while living in a house where a family was raised and likely played basketball in the driveway outside since it was still in good condition when I came across this. This is always significant perhaps to some degree as I am timing what I do to be more helpful to other human beings sharing gravity who lived in different time periods... although it always feels like sure there might be a small influence had from previous owners or residents of my location it is never forced onto me but merely capable of bringing me to a line so whether to cross it or not would still be up to me?
Frank is a name that appears in some of the artwork found in the Swans where the red plane has the hand guiding it to its destination? The name Frank has typically meant something like "firing rank" or "aiming rank" would be more accurate as the sickness found in the definitions of things we come across are fixed by examining further into what may be found between the lines as where there is something negative it becomes something positive by simply looking further into the origins where the people found may have thought of everyone here as being ill so some degree? Its like the number 18 becoming the initials for 'Adolf Hitler' people may typically get stuck upon while a nonhuman influence tries to take advantage of the situation but in the minds of the people they may be merely trying to eliminate the worst possibilities in much the same way that things are remembered in history as the most negative things that had happened since bad news typically spreads faster to ensure our survival. There is a sort of sickness that may come from aligning things for following only a certain trail while pushing your own language and views over what may be found elsewhere as there is something present trying not to be detected with anyone doing this that might be trying to get people to trust in themselves more so that they may be more likely to follow the thoughts that come to them later when it goes completely against everything good for the human host?
What is even more special about these names though would be WHO these people were in my memory.
The first one was a neighbor from New York City who was a very disturbed child that was very dark and really taught the other kids some very bad things likely coming from what might have been found in that city far away and while he was Jewish I would never categorize him as such as individuals should be judged as that instead of bringing down other people with them as if we should all have barcodes placed upon us or something along those lines? So this kid and his little sisters took part in doing so many terribly mean things to us such as stealing our things, convincing us to do bad things to other people, a knife was thrown that scarred my youngest sister in the face, and other incidents where as an adult I had wondered if this child was trying to kill me by talking me into doing very dangerous things as if maybe hoping that I would get hurt while doing them?
The second one was a SLC Punk 'skinhead' that likely would have beat me up if he came across me on the streets looking the way that I did but luckily women or girls were always around to hold them back or take away their desire to do this or more likely he did not want to lose favor with someone in my family. I had spent some time at their place with them seeing things such as pipes or other weapons while wearing makeup and lucky for me no one messed me up like they did to my little sister's boyfriend sending him to the hospital when he took a stand against this kid named Frank. In a nightmare that I had as a child my older brother put our youngest sister into a hot air balloon and it went on an unpredictable route where we went after it and as it went over a school she fell out and we heard a huge 'THUMP' on the roof of one of the small external miniature classroom buildings and then on the floor was a bloody body of someone difficult to identify my older brother was looking down upon as if it was his fault. I woke up sobbing uncontrollably and was likely only around seven years old or so while my Mother woke up and held me for awhile on the stairs where a hole was located that most likely belonged to what should be a rat more than a mouse? After my parents had divorced my older brother had gone to live with my Dad in Los Angeles but before this my Mom had seemingly 'lost it' and chased him like a madwoman in the mountains with her car right behind him almost hitting him while shouting out of the window, "I believe in you!" that seemingly was to prefer him for living in a nonwhite neighborhood where he was picked on by others who would gang up on him with people who were much older jumping out of the shadows unexpectedly at times or whatever. On his first day he tried to answer a question by the teacher that he got wrong and the other kids threw things at him calling him a 'stupid white boy' and another kid took his jacket away which he took back later but was jumped for it by several people after school. In this part of California he was grateful to find anyone white who would be there to make it much less likely he would run into trouble. During recess who was known as 'big Momma' would call her 'children' and then point at a white kid that they would chase or something along those lines. One day they had pointed at him and he run away off of the school property having to jump several fences to get away. Naturally, he befriended other white kids and accepted help where it came so made some friends that might be considered the 'skinhead punk' kind? Someone into maybe into the band Rancid trying to find other white kids to be safer against the odds? Big difference between that and what was found in SLC where what may have been potentially 'buffalo ghosts' people were dangerously getting linked to instead of the usual 'territorial seal ghosts' that likely lived on the California beaches before the men killed them all? Our younger sister with the blonde hair (we all have very blue eyes) was potentially very abusive to the youngest one so that she would not 'follow her' in any way and some of this not only comes from being disturbed from the minds of men in the future that wanted to 'have sex with the both of them?' but also might be to prevent her from following what might have been found in the 'goth' or SLC punk scene to help her get 'revenge' for the abusive stuff that our Jewish neighbors had done to us? This kid named Frank would regularly 'patrol' the streets looking for victims so in my memory there was a sort of Frank vs Frank war? The origins of the name Frank would be something more like "aiming heading caring lifting handing" so hopefully they are educated with timing so that the sea shell is honored more than the what? The fallen star fragment preferred over the compass that goes for a battle ship used for what?
The last time that I had met a Frank was a nice Arabic fellow in the goth scene that called himself a Muslim but much like Christianity they seem to have lost a lot of knowledge or maybe better put would be a lot lost in translation that might happen more often when a teacher insists that there are certain answers to every given test in order to get 100% as too many things were kept from the general public for whatever reason but most likely to time educate them to heal or prevent what might be the malicious knowledge found in the religious texts spreading or found in the wrong hands with fears that would no longer be real today since any computer or phone with access to the internet is just as deadly or dangerous as a person may simply look up alchemy anywhere easily. During more ancient times there would be more serious concerns about spreading the knowledge of what happened in books such as the Genesis since digging into the details of such a story allows a person to be able to make the same threats to others that Moses had made to the pharaohs for whatever reason that they want? Reasons such as this makes sense as to why so much was not understood coming from the bible and the Christians were allowed to be so far off yesterday compared to what was actually written or what had actually happened. It would not have been a good book if people were able to read how to kill people whenever they come across it in so many newer ways they were previously unaware of?
...Franklin...
The letter 'L' typically has the Egyptian origins meaning 'working' so together its "Frank working in?"
The Last Day of September is part of the Sixteen Scented Celebration that I had come up with...
10.30 & 11.1 Columbia, Maryland ("All Things Go" Festival)
What is funny about this place and date being a 'double' is that while I was making my discoveries and sharing them with other people online I looked up remote viewing to find my own name listed as one of the locations for the 'stargate project' the CIA released back in 1995 regarding something based out of Fort Meade, Maryland and I found that a funny coincidence since I was designing my sixteen scented celebration that I came up with for helping people have the best experiences possible and find their largest echo whoever he or she may be in their future bringing people back to more ancient wedding traditions although it may be simply someone important like a friend or partner of another kind...
I had a dream of her coming to me and playing a song that I am going to make where she was singing something while trying to make some music with me so we went over ideas back and forth with her as some very interesting things came up for what could be done in the future potentially should we ever work together or if she were to go forth with what she was wanting to do in this dream...
So... do you want to take a cruise in a Ford Del Rey Sedan?
Clever how the word 'Turner' is replaced by the Ford Del Rey...
So the words 'Del Rey' in Spanish would be something like "from the King"?
...and hilarious that she called herself Lana Del RAY during the year 2010 since it would suggest taking a leap of faith to go up against the worst 'enemy' that the ghostbuster Ray may come up with while running from the zoo(L) or eye of nature discovering his deepest and most private memories..
As far as the other character named Rey goes?
Isn't this something from the newer Star Wars movies?
I actually have not seen them yet but I did watch the first one where Han Solo died.
Yes, I have mentioned earlier in this blog how Harrison Ford has been like a dopple-ganger for my Dad in the same way that Leonardo Dicaprio was a dopple-ganger for me because of how much more publicity and money he made from me since I was working at the parking lot when the teenagers would go to see the movie 'Titanic' over and over again so that they could scream at me on their way out!
So if my Dad was Darth Vader that should be more like Han Solo before a pacemaker is installed or something along those lines than I would be like Luke Skywalker needed for training Rey and in this case maybe it would be regarding several things but mainly deep-stare or flow music technique?
Rylo Ren killed Han Solo and Harrison Ford had said that he was glad to kill off that character so funny thoughts will cross my mind like my Dad being mean, it would be horrible to be alone like he is, and maybe he is better off drinking coffee and wielding the 'red light saber' for the rest of his life while fully capable of not getting a heart attack until much later since his Mom is in her 90s while he worked out?
I feel bad for his taking on the role for the 'basketball diaries' when I got into hard drugs... sorry?
As far as Del Taco goes I think that I have always preferred Taco Time more because of the crisp bean burritos or Taco Bell since it has the best vegan options for fast food but I usually call it Taco Smell!
The 'joke' that comes from this logo is that it is of a Legendary Blue, Pink, and Brown dot...
The letter 'y' is typically used for 'lining' or for showing the line between good and evil... so it is found here to warn people about the brown direction as it may lead to death more than the others if not careful.. so please practice safe 'whatever it is that you do' and please stay kind to others!
The word 'Rey' if its for King than of course he would be encouraged never to make love with a woman who could bring in anything from that direction but the opposite may be found where the more 'civilized' people are living or working since a coffee enema or whatever is found in our recent past.
Historically, there were likely many methods of 'safe sex practices' to avoid pregnancy... and just because there were rules does not mean that they were never broken anywhere? In regards to the most ancient pagan laws to follow in regards to trade the blue was not seen as penetrating her 'wood' so a virgin sold or married into another tribe would be a lot less likely to spread disease from the exchange.
Where the 'brown' was inevitably tested the results would have eventually shown the spread of disease.
I have absolutely loved the company of gay men as they are so nice but I keep proof of being STD free with me and plan to take tests between every lover that I have from now on.. extremely important to do.
I was planning on touring the countryside to see every city and go dancing at all of the best clubs for sampling the night life and deciding on what to do in the future... I have been going through such a magical romantic experience coming from women on the other side of pictures, artwork, poems, videos, and everything that they leave behind for me to come across they share for the public..
The first girlfriend I had that actually gave me her entire focus back that I was with who had dream diaries that I snuck into while she was gone to find out whether or not she was evil because I was scared of her and losing my mind due to what must have been my work and community coming together to make a "reverse psychology AA meeting" to scare me straight while a doctor gave me the wrong prescription with a misdiagnosis making everything worse which led to not being able to sleep for a week at a time until I was hallucinating and doing things I normally would never do and I had to take time off of work as I was somewhat disabled from stress. I was so out of it that I had thought people were drugging me constantly by staying one step ahead and behind while I feared that my girlfriend was trying to stop me from being able to take care of myself as that might lead to leaving her.
During this time I was used to putting up with strangers working together to try and scare me as punishment for smoking or drinking ever since I went to their AA meeting where the guy who ran it introduced himself as not only an alcoholic but also drunk and he had everyone take turns asking for his help never to smoke or drink again while he would ask each one sincerely, "are you sure?"
The coffee no one touched and when I poured myself a cup I was startled by what seemed like a hint of cocaine in the drink! People at my work seemed to be part of what was having to choose a color if I had a cigarette or drink that would lead to the sounds of a saw and what could be a person getting their limb cut off? Later on they would have people with missing limbs volunteer their time to be in certain places that would have the most impact when it came to my coming across them.
I was very lucky that this particular girlfriend trained me on how to please a woman as she expected to have an orgasm like a man every day as she was working so needed the stress relief... there were some days when I did not succeed and I am eternally grateful for her honesty because before her I was completely clueless while I know that because of me she always had a certain "glow" while at work from feeling lucky as many couples never have that goal for the woman to accomplish in the same way as a man so that she has her turn trying to prolong what becomes an overwhelming tickling sensation that somehow must stop but won't even when no longer touched for long enough time too much noise may have been made.. I needed fifteen to forty-five minutes typically while my record time was twelve minutes which was extremely difficult and I have a goal of someday being able to accomplish this without my hands? I do not think that learning ever stops and have found that every person wants to be touched slightly differently.
For some reason while I was with her there was some time when my body hurt all over and her touch would feel like needles no matter where it was as she would ask me where she could and my answer would be elbows only. This was when the album "Minus Touch" came out by Edward Ka-Spel where the first song seemingly lets me know he was possibly aware of the AA-meeting and part of it was maybe about a dream that I had in jail as a young adult of my little sisters friend who died in Italy soon after I went there with them. My sister's friend had come to me in my dreams before we met while asleep asking who he was in my subconscious mind with a knowing smile and we spoke of the limits my mind had among other things while taking walks in gardens inside a giant jar like the ones made for caterpillars. Although Edward followed me on social media much of what he did was a miracle and a result from sharing dreams or having mutual friends so he always knew a lot more as if psychic or maybe a prophet responding to God? I am not the only fan he has transcended time and space for...
The Swans who are found on a top artist list made by Kurt Cobain were calling me "the Seer" in their music seemingly as I was finding out that I had Hereditary Coproporhyria which is the werewolf type that made imagery for the songs such as 'Lunacy' so much more meaningful and the timing of their music being released seemed to know everything that was happening to me as if folks from my work were tapping my phone and had shown him our conversations for a song of his such as "Jim" who is my Mom's brother who had a new 'bitch' that went to Vegas with them kind of like what is said in the song while 200 miles away from what was going on with us was Lake Moses while my scariest neighbors were having secret meetings of revolution because of Obama becoming president that was potentially used to scare me straight as that could be one of the reasons I would lose my arm if I did not quit drinking and smoking?
My Dad was doing things like saying the lyrics from songs like the ones that came out that were eerily linked to what was going on with me during certain moments and would ask me to look up into the sky for me to be surprised by a plane swooping low with people waving at me and for some time it was impossible for me to go to the store without bikers or people circling me with hails possibly to help the reverse psychology AA meeting work and be more believable that a crazy revolutionist guy might do something like cut off people's limbs? Whatever worked in scaring me seemed like would happen? If I was scared of Nazi because my girlfriend's best friend being Jewish blood they would use that while she had fun helping.
When my aunt told me about the "vampire disease" passed down to us she spoke of a circle that would appear on the forehead of my grandfather as he thought every airplane in the sky flew over his head because of him for some reason while the neighbors would do things out of nowhere such as ask me not to be "evil grandpa" as if they knew he got into trouble and went to prison.
I had a hunch that this same circle on my forehead was given to me by my girlfriend with a certain suction kiss the night before while I was passed out as it was the old "speakeasy" way of kicking someone out from the drinking establishments for having a problem? Perhaps the final warning "kiss" when a person has had too much? It definitely worked when it came to making me not want to use drugs most especially when I was tricked into thinking that my Father was some kind of mob boss or mafia man with a secret coke habit himself?!
They made a big mistake in thinking that I was doing something like cocaine or meth when in reality it was just a couple Adderall when my boss came in once a week at first that became a bit more often later. Outside of that, I was usually drinking two or three times a week no more than beer or wine while I had weed sometimes in my system throughout the year.
When I bought weed at work my computer screen flashed one day and some weird 'illuminati' images appeared and then on my way home the cops had their cars parked on route as they were in an exaggerated squat position with a radar gun being pointed at me that followed as I passed by.
I am thankful from how much I learned that I never knew before coming from the new found community education.
It seemed like the ladies inevitably tried to turn it into a "love everybody" or "drugs are okay" kind of Democrat 'show' in the end while my girlfriend gave me some kind of twisted "Lilith training" like no other!? She kept letting me know of ways that I was not killed and thanks to that I will forever be so much safer than other people potentially? Don't touch metal or water in these areas and never eat anything from a stranger, etc.
For awhile it seemed that whenever I drove anywhere I would see a sharpshooter cop car not far from me and when we would travel together others had always stayed close by as if spying constantly while I was somewhat delusional in thinking that there was a secret or special way to do things everywhere we went for special benefits or treatment?
Around this time in my life I wanted a break from everything so I drove to the nearest city outside of Sandpoint and went to a dance club where a bunch of Arabs were found and I might have been punished for hogging all of the attention from the only women at the place as a cigarette containing "Devil's Breath" took away my memory and I woke up after a blackout at a toilet puking up tobacco like I had swallowed a bunch of cigarettes? They probably made me do it while I was drugged and called them fags since I was wearing eye-liner?
When I left the bathroom I saw a man with a shirt that read the words "call the police" on it while he was frantically pointing at it so I went back into the bathroom and called my older brother to pick me up. Upon leaving the bathroom again they may have thought that it was the police I had called since a bunch of Arabs flipped me off at the same time right before suddenly a bunch of cops came busting into the place and took away maybe a dozen of them into custody?!
Never have I seen a dance club with that many men more than women in my life! They really should consider accepting others more as it would dramatically help in having a woman for every man rather than a dozen men for every one? That is scary to know since that drug they gave me would make it so much easier to kidnap someone for who was sexually frustrated and unlucky from not having enough females around perhaps? All someone would have to do is inhale it for a moment and then they would be under complete control of strangers and obey every order given to them!?
When the cab picked me up from this club to take me to where my brother was meeting me an Arab was in the bushes using a laser pointer only the driver seemed to notice with interest as he told me that I would die if I went back with my brother but of course I did not go along with his suggestion that would be going somewhere else? The walkie talkie that he had which was left on in its stand had people talking on it about who was obviously me saying things about porphyria for some reason as if they knew that I had recently found out that I had inherited the blood disease from my grandfather. The driver with a British accent called me "highness" as if I was royalty but the whole encounter was very shady?
Everyone who gets closer to me makes a startling discovery that everyone responds to me while asleep in a way that tries to help my mind or what I am working on or make a request... since mass bent time and we lived once this must be real for every human being but maybe because I might be the first musician with the realistic goal of making albums in twenty other languages it happens for me more?
What I witness whenever I come across a foreign language is synchronicity that answers my last thought in a sound that is like English or what provides seemingly the thought or message others wanted to enter my brain?
This is not difficult to prove to be real... if I were in another country I could record myself simply sharing what is going on in my head and people would witness the miracle of another language in the background being spoken seemingly always responding to me in a way previously understood as impossible.
I do not watch television or movies anymore like I used to because it feels like I am the composer of them by some degree as I fear of being the "monster" on the Twilight Zone that would be the kid with the special gift that chooses what they do with his mind that they have to follow because what I witness is that they are always impossibly timing everything to win my approval somehow or get help from my brain sharing the same light or sound as a collective that could use help?
For example, while watching a cartoon I am able to ask with my mind for them to do things for me in the next slide such as putting a certain color in a special location to prove that it is really happening to me with a random generator.... I am able to ask for things with my mind that they will always give me and this is something I have demonstrated to the public often.. like at a bar I have told someone to look up the sixteenth picture on his phone to find purple in the top left more than anywhere else that had to do what what we were talking about and then after he witnessed this do it again by letting him know that there would be green in the top left the most of whatever video he picked exactly one minute in.
I have met someone who asked me to perform at his party and demonstrated this to be real by asking his friends that I did not know to pick a color, location it would be found the most, and a number to help us find the picture found on his Instagram that by some miracle was the only picture on his profile that had red in that spot the most just like they wanted!
When I meet new people they are a lot more likely to start crying because if I tell them their name using what I call the "language of Adam" or the origins of the letters they witness how their parents or whoever named them by some miracle responded to their living once.
For my website and work in the future I am making something that I call 'the Belt of Orion' for practices regarding safe trade between tribes or other cultures when getting married especially to ensure the healthiest results and prevent potentially harmful accidents or inevitable misunderstandings from the differences regarding various habits or ways of life as well as the exposure to what might be considered a frightening amount of risk in the more populated areas according to the beliefs of our ancestors and the wisest teachings to follow or obey being that which understand the importance of the pentagram regarding how a person may interact with another respectfully doing the least amount of damage from the encounter as the amount of help should always be greater than what could otherwise turn into something like extinction or evolution into a frightening direction as bad timing with the drinking of goat's milk along with many other possibilities are found leading to things such as a human being growing horns.
This is a story about how something called Synchronicity...
Hello!
Are you still out there being tricked by a nonhuman influence?
Please allow me to inform you of what is to come from the plans that I had already made as things happen more often that others never thought or believed was possible... thank you!
I will regularly revisit and update this blog so please share any suggestions when it comes to saving more precious human life over the nonhuman influences trying to trick us into understanding that there is nothing evil but other people in any way that works for another scary opportunity over our own...
Highlander?
I used to use Russian antiques that were by far the loudest heard everywhere when they were used... now I understand more the real reasons for this so that others remember everything as their war has not ended yet while our memory really wakes us up for the need to legally change things now for being able to better adapt to the future that would become nothing but more harm to more human beings if it is not fast enough through encouraging people to work through (or against) layers of choices for the best Metho(d)s of HEALING.
May the spirit of Queen be carried through "Deep Spell Cover Songs" to save another Fred from dying?
Thanks!
The reason that Methos lived 5000 years is most likely because the natives who were living below us when this show came out were drinking something today called 'Mormon Tea' that had some of the same effects as something stronger that kept aligning people to the garbage due to losing their appetite replacing it for a destructive one that the 'rose clouds of the holocaust' warn us about or having met all shells to get married instead of using something from under the sea that is harmless so it might be referring to a type of cold... please do not think that someone who has been sicker should suffer a beheading somewhere away from you.. or something else along those very sick lines of "what?"
When I had first watched the show Highlander I was actually sick with the chicken pox so the type that I had could have been around for about 400 years in the past that is still caught today?
My Father and I are not getting sick like other people due to my coming here but yes we accidentally ate too much mold and caught a year ago... compared to other people we actually have been eating mold while getting tickled from something bad but I have been fast enough to kill it off by preparing foods such as fresh bell peppers every day that can help him be 'saved by the bell peppers' instead having to go through a doctor that he keeps witnessing having the wrong advice both with his son or his mistress that died among other people... as they learned to read more than write so the ways in which they were taught to use our language is still broken both in their habits, choice of art or culture, and NOT BEING ABLE TO COME ACROSS WHAT I AM SHARING RIGHT NOW FASTER!
"We are so sorry and have some terrible news! You had cancer! We are so sorry and will do everything that we can to correct the damage that it HAD caused! Please come with me so that we may discuss our options to prevent or stop the spread of this as soon as possible..."
Our miracle workers are the worst patients because they know that they are most saved from doubting themselves while they work to make SURE they have the best chances of putting their training where it is needed to actually save the lives of the patients or whatever a lot of the time this has been true... this happens in a world where simply BREATHING is a miracle.. this is called Earth.
The best ways to visit this in your memory is to realize that the lightning in the sky strikes the person only if they are not willing to get off of something addicting such as a certain artifact that might be killing other human beings somewhere that came from a museum... as we are sharing gravity with people who would detox whenever they would get sick by getting off of the most addictive things.
So if you are training your child or neighbors with a 'met all' weapon please be wary of someone also trying to attach an electric zap to it in order to save "John Con'n'or" because a terminator is trying to reach you on the other side of whatever it is that you might be using? Letters?? Phones???
Tea is relaxing... sure.. but with a person who is disabled from PTSD how good it is to suggest for my Father who a war veteran that cannot legally do something like drink from the poppy kind? Please do not bring him to having to hurt himself on purpose just to be able to drop his blood pressure if he ever has an emergency again where kratom is needed to lower it immediately from pounding in the head.
He has used that maybe twice so far? Regarding tea its wisest to stick to only one TYPE or else the headaches may come from switching brands much the same ways our pets may suffer from this as well.
Tori Amos?
Ocean to ocean... I have not heard this album yet but while gardening outside and feeling possessed by her soul (like a 'sheman' or shaman) so that my relatives found on other branches in my tree did not do things such as force any harmful ways upon them through our connection.. my Father would do things such as time what he was doing to ensure me or others sharing gravity that it was working all the way back through his 'tree' while when I would do things such as come across the Norwegian language it would say things such as 'do not follow Tori' (so that I use my memory later on and understand that they did not use their 'devil foot' in that direction for us like instructed in their dreams?!).
When it first happened to me I thought that it was because she was teasing me for being a boy separated at the May Pole (or on another island teased by a mermaid on another shore) and it really hurt enough to scare me into a direction that hurt an innocent Faerie from the threats coming from them that my red-haired friend who I hunted with as Orion could become a 'maggot' for stepping on the locust or driving through them and then lovingly trying to sew them back together again or whatever he might have done somewhere else while no one knew thankfully he did not do anything much worse than maybe understanding being saved by a beautiful language such as the one that rhymes with 'Gay-lick' as I am thankful things did not turn out nearly as bad as I had wondered regarding what could have gone on behind closed doors or inside of closets nobody ever wants opened? (this would be considered an act that a boxer calls 'hitting below the belt' as this is not the most respectable thing to do to your opponent for earning shields of honor from other more distant tribes representing an opportunity to trade or marry into them in the future someday through grand something 'again'?}]
Since then the 'angel grasshoppers' (thankful that we had helped in giving the 'devil grasshoppers' wings to fly away from people) have forgiven us and one had even volunteered to be stepped on while trying to SAVE MY LIFE because I went to go smoke and so they were jumping in front of me to demonstrate how they were capable of forgiving us if I kept preventing other children from following something that was obviously too cruel for any creature but near the toes or very tiny microscopic creatures found on the grasshopper might have been victims of the same kind of 'oops understanding of wondering what this small moving object was'?
Dune?
The name Jessica... different for everyone but to me its someone trained to LIE, CHEAT, and STEAL?
lol
Not going to stick my hand in something for her or any of her 'kind' . .. not until they have grown up and learning to blame themselves for everything until that nonhuman influence was found potentially trying to murder a bunch of people using them as 'fake Jews' to convince others that they were real ones for the spreading of colonies coming from food that may have come from their Father.. do you think that the ants or grasshoppers will succeed in actually hammering me to a cross so that the mating cycles for locust are making them more deadly and dangerous for all humanity everywhere next year?
Zzzzzzzzzzion is such a hol'y place... Knot! ?(-e)?
The real story is actually quite hilarious when the good people who are stopping the spread of everything illegal or for war wake up and keep returning to check on 'us' before going back to save others from what we have experienced or shared by the miracles of surviving this long...
My Dad hates rats as just ONE LIVNIG IN A CUPBOARD OR A MOUSE could have been capable of spilling something into what they had eaten causing a lot of innocent people to be hurt or misunderstood over absolutely nothing but a mistake while too many people are thinking that this good family was an 'evil one' that was part of something that they actually were not...
I would not be him because I always was a rat more than a mouse... my Dad is at risk from dying of a Baron.. pizza! Definitely not the helpful family of neighbors growing up near his children.
Yes, those delicious treats actually are quite deadly! What if there was certain bad timing of trying out Tony's and then another person too dumb or scared to stop using the same thing to help 'the boys that need to be brought back home' what might help them laugh and feel better about themselves since they were not ME or what could have been understood as ME so that my most embarrassed friend could twirl while whatever while eating whatever sharing whenever for a secret relationship with MArilyn Manson?!
My boxers have the name 'Tony' on it where something tickles my crack where my grateful friends still alive had done the things that they did so that in my memory I would remember how to save us from dying in a mirror being bugged until death had happened from too many 'wishes for it' accidentally came from too many places along with alcohol (or not going to a gym) & bad timing until the deadly 'Muslim prophecy' would again come true regarding a green eye never to follow for something like cockroaches or insects due to the failure of understanding things in a desert or from a desert that comes from the gardener areas closer to the 'sky'?
What is a "Legendary Pink Dot"?
Is it someone following the path of those who are not hammered to crosses that could have been if they had gone into the wrong hole with too much civilized benefits or failing to be able to cure the same diseases that other company was potentially capable of spreading absolutely everywhere without caring who would be hurt next while using this person further for another opportunity of water becoming wine?
Such a person would likely have been chosen 'by the other side' where they would go to sleep at night, the colonies of the entrails found within the people timed a certain way, along with the animals timing their one eternity for making sure that this one person was able to be heard over what could have been nothing but lies coming from somewhere else a richer person may not have cared for anything other than making sure that he or she did not hurt their public image due to the very existence of someone as dirty as another who may have never been understood by those surrounding him in his mind in their conscious minds as much as their unconscious ones connecting to the truth during their most relaxed state every night and day they entered REM to connect with his brighter mind saved by a fast in the desert and the miracles that came after once again.
#individuallivesmatter
Mark Zuckerberg... you have endangered the life of my little sister who might have tried to kill herself in the past while I was being abused by this social media service possible by a mathematical degree that should not be ignored.. my dog may have helped in saving her life by taking shits that led to where I luckily noticed her before she died and was able to get her to the hospital where they pumped her stomach and she somehow survived. I was training my dog how to save people from the garbage at the time while teaching him the importance of knowing where the Sun rises and sets in relation to where we spend our time working.
Regarding one of the many people that had inspired these funny stories... these blades were perhaps like the ones found in history that they never used along with secret scrolls regarding ancient trades, agreements with other tribes or countries, and shields or promises to hide drawings or other things as people would sometimes visit beneath the blanket of the dragon to make sure that it was no one from there that went to them as in reality they had actually came from South America or something along those lines capable of eating people with a scary bamboo stick of 'WHAT WAS THAT?!" during very ancient times..
Layers of choices save us from being bugged in the mirror to the point of hurting ourselves or others while the show must go on?
Who is for the Red, White and Chew?
Keep moving out into the gap... thank you for not telling my little sister I had injected myself for the first time in that closet with you.. also, thank you to another that may understand how a KAte Bush accidental kiss that may ewW me away from alcohol that saves me for the rest of my life others will always be grateful for as well!
During my life I have felt responsible for creating bad temptations in twins since I was not able to reach myself while stretching as a child... please forgive me for this! I have never SHwinned before while totally understand how mistakes may have occurred from where the garbage was located or who or what they were sharing gravity with in their homes.. perhaps natives or animals before that among other things?
Our private matters much like a special prophet are no one else's business!?
What if a Mother put a baby in a crib like two Pisces... or they had changed positions and then came back to hide forever in fear since she was scared of the possibilities that came from a holy war that should have been cleaning up the garbage in the Ocean instead of pushing for more illegals or whatever else worked to be forgiven or helped more in regards to making safer trades in other countries..
Please mark the location you had lived as a child if you did not make it into marriage when another May passed up by because it might indicate a bushman tribe or natives in the past doing things to feed them out of low times while the sun was coming out more potentially cursing their skin again or whatever?
Have you ever been inspired by how many people might be saved from your habits changing while you move from being caught underneath a rainbow for too long?
If you are a smaller monkey with a smaller head please understand the loving requests coming from another before your luck runs out?
Yell ow flower to wish you well asking you not to wish for death!
The crooked smile comes from a 'deep spell version' coming hopefully soon from this band for $$$?
Unico?
I will revisit this here to finish the story how it has helped me throughout my life but I cannot be like this Unicorn anymore making up excuses for what might be a devil wanting me to have a drink of alcohol?
I am NOT the man from Dune (Paul) because I do not need to be on illegal drugs and woke up to putting out the wheel on fire before it explodes (understand?)
My Father who has a missing tooth may die from having a Baron pizza one day? That is his right... please do not kidnap him to cure him from bacon left out for too long or whatever?
Tony Sopranos... this is a pizza as well.. the last one enjoyed was something from Jack's?
% R E S P E C T .
[maybe I didn't see or know anyone else outside of my mirror for a very long time as well?]
Mirror mirror on the wall who is the fairest of them all...
(maybe it would be my future wife? Snow White or Desert Black?)
Know the name Lilith was for training me regarding how to protect myself from others who might be inspired to "sell my seed illegally" or whatever for another?
EVE is for (its never going to happen!)
Not even Steven?
(not even St even... eleven o' clock does come around though and I am unmarried while capable of having SAFE SEX whether it be a toy or oral or even penetration should I be smart enough?)
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